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I just realised that I've been abandoning my update on Project 365 for 11 freaking days! But I did take pictures every single day. Most of them are my self-obsessed, camwhore pictures cos I was and have been playing a lot with makeup lately haha.


#233 - Hahah cheating picture. Took this today but every other day I have been practising so, my violin is always hung that way onto my music stand.


#234 - Like I said, was playing with make up.


#235 - And I mean A LOT of makeup. I know my face looks a little too white in this picture, it happens all the time when I take pictures with flash.


#236 - My 10 samples of eye pigments from Lumiere came this day. Loving them!


#237 - Another makep day. Wah I think this was my best mascara-application day! Look at my lashes like false ones!


#238 - Ok I look super hideous here that's because I was experimenting with colours on my bare face. Didn't have anything on so it looked really ridiculous.


#239 - Another attempt on natural/neutral-looking makeup!


#240 - I was at uni and when I was done with things, it was peak hour so I dropped by MidValley and... yeah. But I needed most of them anyway! Only the MAC eyeshadows and the Anna Sui Ring Rouge were impulse purchases...


#241 - After about a year or 2 of colour blue/violet/gray contacts, I'm finally going back to black. Still not used to it though :/


#242 - I've been looking for the MAC Pro Eyeshadow Palette for the longest time! It's a palette with 15 empty eyeshadow slots made to fit eyeshadows pans, so you can customize it with any eyeshadow colours you like - MAC ones of course. A few days ago Melissa left me a message in my chatbox saying the MAC store in Kuching sells it and I got a little surprised cos I have never thought any MAC stores in Malaysia sells it only because I've never seen them on display haih. So when I was at MidValley a few days ago, I dropped by MAC and asked about it and tadahhh! They have it! I bought it immediately eventhough I don't have 15 eyeshadows (yet!). On top of that, I bought 2 more eyeshadows so now I have 4 in my collection and I depoted them yesterday and woohoo, success! Ok if you don't know makeup you probably won't know about depoting.


#243 - My lunch today. Taking that picture was crazy, if you notice, I had to use my left hand to use the chopsticks and grab the noodle, and my right hand to click capture on my webcam. I am a righthander and my left hand cannot work for nuts. Oh except for playing the violin and piano of course haha.

Ok before I end this, let me just make an announcement that I've created another blog where I post all my self-obsessed, vain, makeup or anything beauty-related pictures and also blog about them of course.

I decided to make another page for that simply because I personally find it a little too messy to have too many things at once in one post like... I talk about a trip somewhere and then suddenly I go on about my own face. Maybe I'm just being sensitive but I personally prefer reading a post or a blog that is not too jumbled up, if you know what I mean. So I was thinking if I prefer my posts/blog to be that way what if there are readers who prefer it too? I know very well myself that I'm basically quite obsessed with makeup now and taking pictures of myself lol so I don't want to gradually turn this completely into a blog of that kind. I still want to keep this blog as a personal blog, an online update about my life for my friends who read me.

So just letting you know, if you're as obsessed with makeup/beauty or if you can tolerate 8712310 pictures of my face, you can catch me here. I'm not trying to promote this webpage hence, such an understated link (haha like lah a lot of people read me) because like I said, it's all about my face and my obsession which I won't post that much here anymore so if you like all that (you stalker hahaahah), feel free to check me out there.

Ok gtg bye!

Life of Pi - Yann Martel

Anyone noticed my "Currently Reading" column has one book taken off?

Bet no one did, cos I just only took it off HAHA. Ok not funny.

Anyway, yes I've finished Life of Pi finally! Aileen are you reading this? Haha. And I must tell you, IT IS SUCH A FREAKIN' GOOD BOOK!!!

Ohmigosh I can't describe how moved and... amazed I was with it. I simply cannot find the right word to describe how I feel about it. It's a mixture of inspired, moved, awed and all that. And at the beginning I was complaining so much about how boring it was. Seriously the first half (or maybe a third) was so freakin' boring I almost wanted to give up and start on other books. I was like what the hell, why the hell this book is a bestseller and why the hell it's a winning book for some dunno what booker prize? But oh well, everynight before I sleep I thought "Ok let's just give this another try" for a few nights and finally, it got interesting somewhere in the middle - when the ship sank.

I'm not going to start reviewing this book besides telling you readers that it's 'good' cos I suck at reviewing and my review will totally do no justice to how great and well-written this book is. I tried telling the story to Wk earlier in the afternoon and all he did was, "I don't see the point..." and "Huh, like that also can ah?" or "Hrm... why must he do that?"........zzzzz........

I was so excited that I wanted to excite him as well but he totally didn't get the whole point of the story. That proves how bad I am with words.
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Either that, or he sucks. HAHAHHA.

So anyway, I'm both happy and sad that I've finished a book. Happy cos yay can go on to another book. Sad cos... I don't know if it's just me or what, but whenever I finish something be it books or a soap or a tv show series, I always get this 'empty' feeling after that. It's like... ok I'm done so what's next? And somehow I won't be as interested in other books/tv shows anymore given that the book/show that I previously read/watched, was really good. But yeah, I'm continuing on the other 2 books now.

I am totally anticipating for the movie! I heard it's directed by Ang Lee. It better be good! Well, seeing that it's Ang Lee, I'm putting high expectation on it.

Ok gotta go practice now. Oh yah good news good news!!! I totally saved RM500 cos I managed to get my university's letter to prove that the language of instruction was in English so now I can be exempted from IELTS!!! Ok what's bothering me now is that freakin' audition recording haih.

Because I Think Replying To Your Comments Deserve One Whole Post =)

What a long title. But yeah.

I am so happy and I honestly feel so freakin' blessed to have readers/friends who are concerned about my insignificant and unnecessary worrying. I feel so happy to read all the long, long comments because it tells me one thing - you guys actually took the time to highlight it and read through that whole long crap and you guys cared! I feel so touched T____T I'm not saying this just to make me seem like I'm nice, seriously! Well, I AM nice anyway HAHAHA.

ShinD, awww actually it's not that I am snobbish or anything it's just that I'm not good at talking with new people so a lot of times, people don't actually find me friendly and some even think I look "angry" hence, unapproachable -_- but thank you for saying I was friendly to you =D

Ping, well you are damn right about everything but stepping out of my comfort zone... I still need a lot of time to master the art of it hehe. Anyway, I hope you're doing fine in the UK! I read your post about LDR. Like I've always said, have faith! You can do it too. =)

Maggie, wtf your comment cracked me up the most! But they're all so true! Yala yala I don't like you wtf. HAHAHA. Yeah, the only thing that I actually look forward there is of course Wk, and at least one of my besties, you, are there! =) Omg but NARS is sooooo overpriced at Australia T_T

Esther, dim gai you scold me bitch T___T LOL! Anyway, the thing is, IF I get accepted I most probably will continue staying there cos I most probably will try to get a job there... but yeah. To think it through I shouldn't be complaining since its not that the world's shutting off on me. Eh even if I have Wk and Maggie there I will definitely miss you one lar T____T

Fang Chin, wah short and sweet hahaah! I like! Actually it's not about me wanting or not anymore, but more like can I make it? T___T

Laughing, haahahahah with you it's all about gossiping! Thanks for the encouraging words! I will =)

I guess afterall, I shouldn't be complaining because really, there isn't any problem. Well, like I said, I only wanted to ramble a little. Thanks again for the great comments, everyone! =)

On a totally unrelated note, here're the pieces that I'll be preparing for the audition:

Vivaldi's Winter Concerto
Beethoven's Spring Sonata
Wieniawski's Romance
Stravinsky's Russian Maiden's Song

I hope it's up to standard... Luckily I have Wk there because he helped me to ask the International Admissions' Officer directly and cleared all the confusion I had. The deadline's on Christmas Eve, I'll be submitting my application early November. I've even called my accompanist (who's a really good one btw, and expensive too T___T) and I was so glad that she said ok cos I was told that she's busy all the time and I was a little worried if she cannot help me. And another great news is that I don't have to submit in a video format, just an audio will do. Which is a great relief cos then I don't have to worry about tripods, sound balancing and whatevers. Now, where can I find a good sound recorder...

Haihhhhh

I know I said I won't be updating as often but here I am. I've been feeling really restless for the longest time. It's about application to study Masters at University of Melbourne. I have soooooo many mixed thoughts about this. Like SOOOOO many. Or maybe I should say SOOOOO much. A part of me wants to get accepted, a part of me doesn't. I'm pretty sure most of you know why I want to get accepted and I'm pretty sure most of you don't know why I DON'T want to get accepted. Yes, I've been keeping it to myself. I won't hide from everyone that the very main reason to me even wanting to apply to that university, is to stop my long distance relationship with Wk. I know, if we want to make it work, shouldn't he be doing something too, right? The thing is, he has done so much for me that I can never ask for more. I most of the time brag about the good things he has done for me, good things he got me etc etc but those are actually only like a small part of what he did or has been doing. Crap did I just bragged again? Cos the only reason I don't talk about EVERYTHING is to not sound like I'm bragging. Ok that aside, let me just let you all know the reason I even want to go to Melbourne and study is not because I love that place. Not that I hate it, I like that place and the only reason I'm liking it is because Wk's there and I'm serious. I don't want to lie to everyone and say that place is beautiful I love the people the weather blablabla when really, to think it through, if I were to be there by myself I would have hated it. So yes, my only reason to go there isn't really because I wanted to study, but to be with him. The reason I don't want to be accepted is not entirely because I don't want to study either. It's because I am afraid of the new surrounding and the new environment again. I have to once again, face new people, make new friends (hopefully, because I'm actually the last person anyone will call 'friendly'), learn new things. And besides, it's not Malaysia where I'm familiar of the culture and everything else. It's a totally new place, new culture. I am tired of building a new comfort zone. 3 years ago when I first went into uni, it took me about half a year to find people that I'm comfortable with. For about a month or two, I was all alone. And I hated it. I hated the part where I had to be alone on everything when everywhere I turn, I see people having a friend beside them to talk to. Even people only knew each for not long. I am not good at socializing at all. I am afraid of facing all that once again. I feel really happy with my group of friends from highschool and uni that I have found, that I am really comfortable and can be myself with. Esther, Wai Tuck, Cat, Adelle, Cheng Choo, Jian, Chooi Yin. Honestly, I am afraid of trying new things. I don't have the guts, I admit. I'm very much a stick-to-comfort-zone kind of girl. Besides all that fear on a completely new environment, I am worried of my youngest sister too. My other sister is at Sabah doing her degree, if I leave next year, my brother might leave for the UK in September. Then it'll be her alone at home. The thought of her being alone makes me sad. Also, another reason that I'm feeling so restless now is that, what if I don't get accepted? Money will be wasted. And not just my application fees or my violin lesson or accompaniment charges. Because Wk's foreseeing me there next year, he has cancelled his contract with his current apartment just to look for another apartment to accommodate the both of us. But what if I don't get accepted!!! I feel so stressed =( I REALLY REALLY REALLY want to be there! And I'm REALLY REALLY REALLY afraid of being rejected. And I'm REALLY REALLY REALL scared of new environment, and going through the 'alone' phase again. And if I go, I know that I will REALLY REALLY REALLY miss everything back home.

I want, and at the same time don't want it. Why! =(

Ok. Enough of ramblings. I'm going to sleep now.

Food in Melbourne

First of all, I'd like to thank all of you who shared with me your opinions on my previous post. Thank you sooooo so so so much for taking the time to voice out what you think! It seriously educated me a lot on how to be a better sister! I grew up to be the eldest so most of the time, I didn't have anyone to talk to since my younger siblings couldn't understand much and I didn't realise how I'm putting my past on my own sister by not bothering about her school life! I should have talked with her more about it. I seriously don't want her to go through the kind of shit like having no friends. Seriously, it's the worst feeling ever. And if she cannot even confide to anyone at home, that'll be so sad.

Alright! That aside, let me just continue with some pictures from Melbourne. By the way, I lazy resize la. Sometimes I wonder if you guys prefer the smaller pictures or the full sized one. Let me know if it does bother you.

Breakfast @ Globe Cafe

My chilli corn cakes with avocado, fetta, mint and Tasmanian smoked salmon - Tasted quite... exotic? Dunno if that's the right term. Wasn't bad but wasn't exactly yummy either. Very... strange combination.

Aileen's spinach and horseradish potato hash with poached eggs and hollandaise.


Wk's breakfast jaffle with fried egg, bacon and tomato.

@ Soda Rock Diner which is a really cool place. It's exactly like the diners you see on American TV shows. Like Back to the Future, or Cinderella Story (the one with Hillary Duff).

I think this was the Cheese Burger, which was really nice!

Look, they even have a jukebox on top of each table and mind you, they do work! I think it was about AUD1 for 3 songs. I picked Suga Suga (Archie's theme song), Glenn Miller Big Band's... something which I can't remember. I've been missing in action in uni's Big Band rehearsal that I can't even recall that piece's name. And also another song which I can't remember.

Look at the cheese freakin' oozing out! Mmm...

There's also a pinball machine which Wk played and lost in about 5 minutes HAHAHA. Ok maybe I did exaggerated but I remember he walked back and whined "Cheating one the machine!" HAHAHHA.

@ Maccas


Mighty Angus! How cool is that they even have a website!!! Ohmigoshhhh this was soooo good I'm craving for it right now! Sourdough bun, thick, tender and juicy beef patty, bacon, melted cheese, onion, mayo and zesty relish! *stomach drumming...

Lastly, @ White Tomato, Korean food.

We tried their Spicy Beef Hot Pot but it was toooooooooo oily. Seriously, the whole pot was filled with oil. Putting the oil aside, I actually quite like it. I thought it was quite nice.


Seafood pancake which was yummayyy!

Oh you know, I googled 'white tomato' and guess what popped out?




WTF

Seriously, there are such things as WHITE TOMATOES!??

Crazy. Anyway, from today I won't be updating often cos I'm preparing for my masters audition tape huhuhuhu T________T so, enjoy this video of a compilation of the pictures from my visit to the Tesselaar Tulip Festival! There are too many pictures and I'm just too lazy to upload it here so I figured the best way is to compile them. I do have individual pictures but if you're not my friend in Facebook, then too bad lah don't need to see. But they're not very interesting lah anyway.

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Ok bye!

PS I just noticed that all the pictures I put up are food, food and food! Was that all I did in Melbourne? Lol.

Bully

I was told something really shocking a few hours ago. Apparently, my sister has not many friends at school because her classmates think her hair's weird* and they refused to hang out with her. And I can so imagine people jeering and laughing at her hair. Assholes. She has this one friend (might be her ONLY friend), not sure a he or she, who does hang out with her and sometimes, under conditions. That so-called friend made my sis finish his/her homework and 'threaten' her that he/she will not hang out with her if my sis doesn't do his/her homework for him/her.

I was so shocked, I cried. I seriously don't know why. A sense of familiarity perhaps?

Not that I used to be ignored in school because I had funny hair but I do remember not having many friends around. Some days, I walked alone and ate alone during recess. And I also do remember trying really hard to please people just to get more friends. And by pleasing, I mean ways like what my sister's jerk friend did. And I can tell you, if you have not been in situations like that, you can never understand the kind of pain and misery I went through.

Anyway, that's not the point. The point is, I really need opinions on how I can help my sis now. Don't tell me to scold her friend because that'll mean losing her probably one and only friend. I was so shocked because I never thought things like this could happen to her because she has always been bubbly even after returning home from school. I found out all about these from my brother. I feel so bad as an older sister now =(

*It's very stiff and big, almost like having volumizing hairspray all over it and the strands are really dry and coarse. And you know all the Chinese schools' super freakin' ridiculous rule that girls must have ear-length short hair, it doesn't help at all because the shorter the hair, the bigger it gets. But seriously, I don't see any problem with that at all, it's not that she's balding or anything.

And just now when she was packing her schoolbag, she realised she left a stack of her homework books in the tuition centre. She probably asked my dad to something about it but instead of helping, he refused to and I think my sis probably asked a few times and got rejected cos after a while, she went on packing while crying really badly. And then, as if the matter's not bad enough, my parents went yelling at her telling her its her own fault and she should bear the responsibilities herself. And then my mom suddenly changed the whole topic and yelled at her about her hair saying it's so stiff and dry because she uses too much shampoo and that she doesn't take care of it.

Like what the fuck??? I am freaking sure you can't find any 9YO out there who actually knows anything about haircare! I myself did not! I'm pretty sure my mom too!

I don't understand why instead of thinking of a way to solve the matter, they prefer yelling and making people feel like total crap.

It's not like my sis has been forgetting to keep her books. It's her freakin' first time! And for goodness sake, it's a whole bunch of her homeworks which she probably needs to submit tomorrow! And again, we all know Chinese schools' super freakin' ridiculous school teachers who spank their kids in whatever shit they do e.g. talking too loudly, talking too much, forgetting to bring books, forgetting to complete homeworks and whatnot.

It's not that she forgot 1 book, 1 subject or 1 homework. She forgot one whole stack! Yes it clearly is her own fault but hello? Have they no pity on a just a 9YO?

If I were to have finished ALL my homework already and still got spanked just because I forgot to bring them to school and my parents would not want to help me no matter how much I begged and how hard I cried, I would totally feel like crap and cry a river too. She is after all, only a 9YO girl.

But yeah, that's my parents. Me and my other siblings were all raised the hard way. Yelling all the way. Which pretty much explains why, we don't really talk to our parents. Unless its the essentials like school fees, allowances and stuffs. Otherwise, pretty much nothing.

I'm not saying I don't love them and they don't love us as their children. I'm just a little heartbroken to see a scenario like this. Its like seeing the past of myself.

But anyway, do leave me your opinion.

Spring Cleaning!

Lazeeeeeeeeeeee. Lazy to blog, lazy to edit and upload pictures.

#228 - Made this for dinner. Yummy! Fresh pasta rocks. And I totally made those beefballs myself, they're not ready-made ones ok.
#229 - I love-hate Maccas at the Tullamarine Airport.

#230 - Reached home in the morning and saw this on my table. I hate this picture. I look fugly =(
#231 - Did a little bit of spring cleaning on the box I keep all my skincare/hair products and whatnot. Threw away a whole lot of junks which I've not been using for a long time. Can you believe it? I saw one Bodyshop Body Butter and it was manufactured in 2001 holy crap that stuff's 8 years old!!! And no, I've not been using it anyway. Ugh.

#232 - Bought some stuffs in Tesco and finally organized my makeup products which have been pouring out from my small pouches. I've accumulated an amount that my pouches no longer can be zipped up anymore. So I got that tiered mini plastic drawer, a letter holder and a pencil cup.

My vanity! And a few books that I am currently reading and will read soon.


1st drawer - Face and lip products. 2nd - miscellaneous stuffs like fake eyelashes, eyelash curler, nail polish, some eyeshadow bases, gel eyeliner, sharpener, tweezers, scissors etc.


3rd - brushes. I actually bought the pencil cup to store my brushes but I was a little grossed out thinking about dusts which might get trapped in the bristles so I decided to keep them inside the drawer. 4th - powder eyeshadows.

For my huge eyeshadow palettes, I got a letter holder and stacked them in it. And for the pencil cup which lost its function for my brushes, I put all my mascaras, eyeliners and another eyeshadow primer in it.

Actually, I'm still not quite happy with the organization. I wanted to separate the miscellaneous tools, blushers, face products, lips, eyeshadow primers/bases and eyeliners but clearly, 4 drawers are not enough -_- Looks like I need another one hrm. Well, that's not what really bothers me. I have a feeling that all these might slowly build up in the future...