Century Gothic

Changed the fonts of this blog cos I finally find small fonts irritating. Also, I discovered this font that's pleasing to the eyes... ok MY eyes. It's the Century Gothic. I especially love the question mark ? hahaha. Nothing much yesterday except for me breaking down again. Seriously need to stop it! It gives me uneven eyelids the next morning which is now. 

Is it just my computer or is everyone else's internet particularly in the Klang area's shitty?

First Job Application

Yay!:

I've finally finished a cover letter and a resume! 

#337

Having worked both part time and full time as a music teacher for the past 6 years, I've never in my life needed to write a resume nor a cover letter to get jobs. People just look for me and take me once the schedule's sorted out. If I'm sounding like a complete show off, I'm not. Cos that's just the case for people who teach music. Music centres are often desperate and deprived of experienced music teachers especially violin teachers. So anyway, talking about these cover letter and resume, I'm finally doing it cos I wanted to apply for this job - which I have already done. What happened to my master studies plan? That'll go to another post in the future.

Dippy, Fran & Hi-Chew

Yay!:

I'm not feeling the best, but definitely better already. Thanks to everyone who showed concern =) Did some retail therapy today. Went out with Esther. Look what I bought!

 

From Forever 21, 3 tops, a pair of earrings and a necklace! I don't know what's with me, everything I picked has an abstract, floral motive! They all look like pieces of art. Water colour art. Tattoo. Graffitti. Aaah I love them. And thank goodness I didn't get everything in black otherwise, can't wear them for CNY. I have a tendency to buy clothes in black ALL THE TIME. So, surprise surprise. Actually not that I really care about the colour for CNY but I don't like people to nag me.

And also, the junkfood junkie in me got these as well:

 

I am OBSESSED with Japanese snacks. Seriously. Fran has completely replaced Pocky in me. It's wayyyy better. Dippy is the BEST biscuit sticks with dips everrrr. Forget Yan yan, if that's what it's called... Only those that I got - the ones with chocolate biscuit sticks are good. I've tried other 2 flavours, not as nice. And Hi-Chew candies! They're like Sugus (anyone still remember Sugus?) but much nicer!  Apple is the BEST flavour out of all that I've tried but we'll see. Cos I've gotten a few new flavours that I've never tried before like Peach, Daifuku and... I'll tell you in the next picture. Daifuku tastes like strawberry yoghurt. Not impressed. Haven't tried peach.

And guess what's the next flavour I got?

 

DURIAN WTFBBQ!

Seriously I wanted to laugh when I saw it! Isn't it funny? Durian flavoured chewy candy! I was really curious on how it'll taste so I got it. Actually it's not too bad but being a fan of durians, I'd say it tastes quite artificial. But I'm sure Esther will cringe when I offer this to her. Lol.

Boo!:

I STILL have not gotten over the fact that I was rejected. Honestly, I don't know if I would reapply. It's not something easy, like some of you may think. I spent a lot of money just to produce the audition CD. If I were to reapply, I would need to do it all over again. If you're wondering why wouldn't I use back the same CD, it's because hey, if you have time, wouldn't you want to make it better? If I decided to reapply, I'd rather reproduce everything than sending a lousy CD (which I got rejected with) and risk getting rejected again. It just wastes time - producing the CD and waiting for the reply. And in the end it only makes me feel like shit. Music is not as simple filling in the application forms and sending it and attend an interview. 

I know I've also made a mistake by not applying to a few other universities. My reason is I ONLY want to go to Melbourne U. And my reason to that is if there's a good school, why not?  If my qualification fits, why not? But looks like I'm not fit for it lah. I HAVE heard that the music school in Monash is not as good, which explains why. If I ever thought of applying again, I will definitely send my application to not only one university. If.

Random:

Besides crying, this rejection has made me think a lot. Will talk more about it once it's confirmed.

Thanks for reading people! 

x

Eev

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Yay!:

After that news, there's nothing I was happy about already.

Boo!:

It happened so quickly. One minute, I received a package and was really excited but was turned down cos it's not from the uni but some stuffs I bought online a while ago. Then I received an email from an agent in IDP whom I've been dealing with all these while. I asked her for her help last week to see if the uni has sent any reply cos it's been more than 3 weeks since they received my application. When I saw that email from her, my heart skipped a bit and I started praying. Ok maybe not praying since I've never prayed. But I was hoping to see something good. Instead, these words "I'm sorry but your application is unsuccessful" made me stunned. I didn't feel as bad until I saw the PDF file, a scan of a supposingly the uni's letter to me which I've yet to receive.  I broke down little by little and have been crying nonstop that it's making everywhere hurts. My jaw, my nose, my eyes (its so swollen I can't even open it properly now haih) and my head. It's not that I don't want to stop crying. Everytime I think about another goodbye, it just shatters my heart. I admit part of the misery is because I have spent so much money just to prepare that fucking audition cd. To reapply, I need to spend another sum. And my dad always say I don't save money. How do I save my money when I need to pay for so many things each time? Those aren't the point anyway. Haih.

Random:

Just to hide my fugly crying face.

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This is not a yay boo random post.

In case you are wondering, my application was rejected. I thought I could accept it when it happens since I did expect the worst scenario. I was wrong. I cannot. If you think I'm wallowing in self pity, yes I am. Let me, at least for now.

I don't know what to do next.

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Yay!:
No work!

Boo!:
Where's my reply...

Random:
My sister got scolded and spanked really badly just now. She totally deserved it. It started with her crying for no reason. And when my mom got really irritated with her crying and not wanting to tell the reason, my mom started scolding her. Welcome to my family - no such thing as "What's wrong dear? Why are you crying?" more than once. If my mom asked nicely one time, you better tell. If not, god bless you wtf. So anyway, after scolding her and forcing her with a rotan, my sis finally spilled it out and it was an extremely EXTREMELY STUUUUPID reason ok. That's why I say she deserved it.

Hotdogs

Yay!: 

The only time I stepped out of my house is a few hours ago, to A&W's with Esther cos I had cravings for hotdogs and I almost died of boredom at home. Oh! This morning before my dad went out he kinda yelled at me again about not finding a job blablabla not saving/having money to buy CNY clothes blablabla. I was thinking "just hand me the fckin cash only lah" wtf hahahaah. And before he went out with mom he passed me the moolah =D And then when they got back my mom actually bought me a facial cleanser and a scalp care shampoo wow! And it wasn't some generic cleanser or shampoo ok, they're the professional ones. Honestly, I don't know what to say about my parents. They're so weird and funny in a way sometimes.

Boo!: 

I slept really late yesterday night (about 4am) and today my mom woke me up and she asked me to hang up all the washed clothes to get them dried. FML. I super hate it when people wake me up from my slumber. I know it's Thaipusam today so postmen don't work but I'm still very impatient with the reply from Melb U. Oh and internet has been really, really slow today.

Random:

I forgot to brush my teeth this morning HAHAHHAHA. But it's ok. People say it's actually pointless to brush it in the morning cos the important step is to brush it at night. And I did brush and flossed my teeth and rinsed my mouth last night. So it's ok.