Durian Cendol

Back from Malacca!

Yeah no big deal cos nobody cares anyway hahaha. I had a great, great time there. Not so much about the place nor the food though cos I've been there before. It's the amount of laughters and snappy, sarcastic moments we had. With great company comes great place.

Now, I need to freakin' wash my hair.

Signing off,
猪妹
(non halal word HAHAHHAHAHHAHA)

A day with good internet connection

I do notice that I've been abandoning my Project 365 but I did not notice it's been almost two months now! Technically, I didn't exactly abandon it cos I still do take pictures except that I haven't been doing it on a daily basis. So yesterday I was contemplating whether to persevere and finish what I first started, or what the heck, just freakin' give up cos who takes pictures every single day anyways!

I decided in the end that I should just go on with it. I think I shall also make a little confession here that I cheated in my Project 365 cos some are just 'filler' pictures and what I mean by 'filler' pictures is pictures that are not taken on the day/date it's stated, but they are taken on some other day and I dated it that way so that I have something to fill in the gap or on the day I did not take pictures. Geddit?

Who cares anyway right?

And since there's more than 30 pictures, I'm not going to post all of them here so I'll just put a link to my Project 365 Album in my Facebook which I'm not even sure if people who aren't my friends can view it... but whatever lah I don't think anyone's gonna click on it anyway. (Anyone noticed I kept saying 'anyway'? Super annoying...)

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=29577&id=554637212&saved#/album.php?aid=123925&id=554637212

Ok now, guess what? Somebody freakin' bought a MacBook Pro for me!!!

Hahahah joking of course. Wk bought it cos since he's going to Germany he needs a mobile computer for his studies and his old one is too old already so that's why he bought it. And the reason he bought a MacBook Pro is...

not telling hahahahaha. So technically it belongs to him but since I'm a leech (inside joke tee hee), of course I get to use it too lalalala. Walao so damn nice I loikeeeeeeeeeee!

Obligatory picture with the 'pop art' effect  using the MacBook Pro's iSight!

Forgot what this effect's called.

The 'fish eye' effect!

Everything else in the laptop's super cool too! Argh now I want one for myself. My stupid laptop has been driving me nuts lately.

Some past events include...

my mom's birthday,

my sister's birthday a day after my mom's and my own birthday.

Lastly, some food pictures you readers can salivate at hahahaha.

People who are close to me knows that I love Tony Roma's. I especially love their Dinner Combo which comes with 2 pieces of beef ribs and 3 sidelines which I will always ask for their corn, baked potato and grilled shrimp!

Dinner Combo

On the day I finally got my application settled, we (Wk and I) went to Pyramid and had Tony Roma's for dinner. Along with their Dinner Combo, we ordered something which I've never tried before which is the Tony's Sampler which consists of three 'sample' sizes of their starters.

DAMN NICE!!!

There's the Buffalo Wings, Dips (stuffed potato skins) and Onion Loaf. Onion Loaf was only ok but still worth trying. The other two was super nice!

Ok end of advertisement.

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Bored

http://www.formspring.me/choieevon

Just thought it'd be fun haha.

Now, We Wait.

Finally, after half a year of planning on applying to study in Uni of Melbourne, it's finally done yesterday. Something unexpected happened though. When I was waiting for the university's representative to waive the AUD100 assessment fee, I was told that it cannot be waived because my qualifications actually didn't meet the entry requirements. I was on the verge of throwing a fit because I couldn't believe what I heard. I have been preparing this for so long and I have even visited the IDP office more than twice, consulting the people there, telling them the exact course and only after I have spent so much of money and time getting everything ready, they told me I didn't have the right qualifications. Seriously, what the fuck.

I initially read from the website that the Masters in Music Studies only require a Bachelor's Degree in Art majoring in music, which was why I thought I was only eligible for only that course cos the rest require a Bachelor in Music, which is not what I have. It didn't specify exactly how long my course should have been so I took it that I actually qualify? Later on the representative told me that I actually need an Honors year, which means a 4th year of study to qualify myself for it. My degree was only 3 years. And there's no Honors year for it.

After some debating and some clarification, I decided to do the Postgradue Diploma instead. It's equivalent to an Honors year of study so by taking this, I'll be able to do any other Master studies in the future.

And my audition, thank goodness it didn't come out to be a waste of time and money. An audition CD of 30 minutes, which was what I have already prepared, was required so in the end all I had to do was just changing the course I wrote. And the assessment fee was waived too.

But the bad news is, because the closing date for application's Christmas Eve and IDP's next courier service is next Thursday which IS, Christmas Eve, I had to send my application out myself on that day itself. Went to DHL and paid RM170++ for everything and it's that expensive because there's a freakin' CD, my audition CD. Without it, it's only RM70++. KNN!!!

But yeah, application's finally done and now, I'll have to wait till next January or February to get their reply.

I twittered of not wanting to see IDP anymore. I'm taking that back. I hope I'll get to see them again cos the next time I need to see them, is when I actually get accepted.

My 2X-th Birthday :)

I got back after 2 long, long days and checked my Hotmail and saw " _2 New Messages" and I told Wk,

" Wtf I got _2 new messages! My inbox is always cleared wan! "

And he said,

" Sure kena spammed lo "

-______-

" Stupid, its birthday wishes laaaaaaa "

Anyway, _2 is a number with the first figure not revealed (isn't it obvious...) cos I don't want to sound like I'm bragging so you can guess all you want but seriously, I've never gotten so many messages before! All these while, my phone will keep buzzing or ringing due to incoming messages but no, I've not gotten even _2 SMSes as well. This year my phone only buzzed a few times. I think there's only about 10 birthday SMSes? And I was thinking sadly to myself, the older I get, the more people forget about me. Until I see _2 New Messages! Crazy!

Thank you so much everyone! Whether or not you wished me in advance, on the day itself or belated. I appreciate every wish cos it's always better to be late than never! =) That's why, I replied to each and every one of the wishes cos I honestly, sincerely, truly appreciate it!

Someone asked what I've wished for this year. I almost forgot about wishes that's because I didn't get a cake this year. My parents were out for a formal dinner so we didn't get a cake and sing a birthday song and blow candles. Heck even if there is a cake it's not that we ever make wishes anyway. Btw, this is NOT a hint to anyone to get me a cake ok.

So, usually I don't make wishes unless I celebrate it with friends who get me a cake or something. But if I were to wish, I wish my application will get accepted by Uni of Melbourne.

So far, I've gotten 3 presents and they are all stuffs I've mentioned in my Ee Von's Guide to Getting Gifts for Ee Von (wtf how did I even came up with such a self-obsessed title)! It's so crazy! I'm contemplating whether or not to talk about them presents cos again, I don't want to sound like I'm bragging but I so want to tell the world how great my friends are!! Argh should I or should I not?

Anyway the best present this year has got to be...

MY AUDITION CD IS FINALLY DONE!!!

And a better news is I don't have to spend a diamond on it! I mean, it's not free of course but the amount is so much lesser than what I was expecting so that's a GOOD GOOD GOOD news ok! I am so freaking excited and happy and sleepy at the same time.

Seriously, it got so freaking hectic that I've been having 2 cups of coffee everyday.

And I can't even sleep now until I get all my application stuffs prepared! Will be heading to IDP tomorrow to get it done and over with! And then I'll hang around in some mall with Wk and waste time before I go back home and...

SLEEP AT LEAST 12 FREAKING HOURS I'M SERIOUS.

LCCT Tomorrow!

AAAAhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

I can barely contain my excitement now :)

Tomorrow Wk will be back and I'll be picking him up!!!111111

Seriously, damn excited and I kept smiling to myself like a sohai wtf.

MMMMM MY GYU TAN DON ALL THE WAY FROM MELBOURNE :D

Although he'll only be back for about 3 weeks before he leaves again...

There's this joke which Kai Mun (Maggie's boyfriend) came up with when I was at Melbourne. Because I was there and Wk kinda paid for me for most things, I was called a leech and Wk's my host and I'm sucking his blood HAHAHA! I know, it sounds kinda mean but it totally is not. It's a funny joke, just that I totally fail in making it sound funny here that's all.

So I twittered something about how should I tell my parents that I won't be coming home tomorrow night cos I most probably gonna stay over at his place. I used to use "uni" as an excuse last time. You know, I either stayed at campus or at my rented room so I could always say I'm going back there when actually I didn't hahahaa. Ok sorry I really don't want to be a bad role model for lying so much but really, sometimes my parents knew I stayed at his place. I just... find it easier to say "I'm going back to uni" than "I'm staying at my boyfriends house", knowwaddamean?

Anyway. Maggie replied, "Tell them your host is back and u need blood!" AHHAHAAHHAHHAHHAHAAH WTF!!!

Ok end of lame jokes.

YAYYYYYY TOMORROW YAYYYYY!!!!11111111

Ee Von's Guide To Getting Gifts for Ee Von

HAHAHAHA WHAT A STUPID TITLE! But just read on for the heck of knowing what are things that won't be a waste of money when thinking of getting stuffs for me, ok? Let me just warn you it's kinda wordy cos I give very detailed reasons of liking them as gifts.

1. Cosmetics

I won't deny that I personally prefer higher end stuffs than regular drugstore ones cos I'm materialistic like that. My ultimate love is of course for MAC and NARS which I don't own many cos they're not cheap at all. I also do like Stila, Make Up For Ever and Benefit. As for drugstore brands, I'm more into stuffs by Revlon, Rimmel and NYX but I do own a few things from other brands as well cos I initially only wanted to try them out. I'm not saying all, but every cent is worth it when you're getting something from the higher end brands.  Better quality, better colour variety to choose from and better packaging. And that's why I always end up getting more expensive stuffs eventhough Watsons and Guardian do sell things that works just as well. Maybe it's just me, maybe it's just my notion about these things. But seriously, I'll be really happy to receive a makeup product as a gift whether or not it's high end or drugstore. But please bear in mind that makeup products are not things that I can keep cos eventually, they'll expire and I will have to get rid of them. I don't like giving makeup products as gifts only because of this reason but if you think it's ok, I'm more than glad to receive =D

2. Books

Just because I'd love to read something nice and I'd love to not have to lose my grasp on the English language! Lol. I don't speak too much of English cos at home, we don't communicate in English except for sarcastic purposes. When with friends, I usually use Manglish. And since I'm done with studies and haven't been writing and reading in a while, my grammar and everything to do with the language is seriously deteriorating! I don't have a specific genre that I always go for cos what I always do when I want to get a book is google what's bestselling in the world now. Either that, or I take note when people say they like a certain book. I most likely would get it only because I've heard people saying it's good. I do chicklits but sometimes I find chicklits kinda pointless, they're most of the time the same. I'd love to read things that are inspirational, things that are beautiful, things that are not the usual kind. Things that you know, make it so special that they sell like hot cakes. Not so much into fantasy stuffs though. Books are great gifts cos they won't expire, and they are meaningful. You can even leave a handwritten note in it so I will never ever forget that that book was a gift! I don't own many books so don't worry about getting a book that I already have. You can always check out the "Now Reading" column.

3. Fragrance/Body Spray/Body Mist

I'm not so much of a body spray/body mist kinda person but I have always wanted to try. As for the scent I go for when choosing a perfume, it is usually fruity, not overpowering-ly sweet and a subtle floral scent that gives a kind of identity. For example, for fruity/sweet goodness I'd go for my Escada Ocean Lounge (used to be Sunset Heat). It has got the perfect fruit/sweet scent. I hate DKNY's Be Delicious btw. Jennifer Lopez also has a sweet scented one but it smelled kinda cheap so I didn't get it. Britney Spears has one too but its too sickly sweet. And as for a subtle perfume scent which gives a kinda identity, I love Lancome's Miracle Magic, Dior Addict 2 and Gucci Envy Me. I hate strong, musky scents. Honestly, I'm not good at describing perfume scents but I can tell you I don't like CK Eternity. I know some people think that fragrance is something that's kinda personal as a gift but I am personally quite flexible with gifts; as long as it's something for me I'll be glad to accept! But again, like I said, it'd better be something I like other wise it's gonna be a waste of money.

4. Art Supplies

I haven't been involved in anything to do with art until recently I got hooked into makeup. And the reason I love makeup is not mainly because I have a lot of flaws or imperfections to hide (although I do have lots of flaws and imperfections to hide) but I simply love the art of makeup and also applying makeup! After all these years, I have never fell out of love with colours. Whenever I walk into an art supply store I always get fascinated and excited. Whenever I walk into a shop full of colours for example the place in Subang Parade which teaches people how to knit, it's full of colourful yarns and threads and whatnot, I get fascinated. Whenever I walk into a professional cosmetics store, I get fascinated with all the different eye shadow colours that's displayed. I have always wanna go back to learning art. I was in an art school for more than 10 years and I've always loved water colour. I have always wanted to learn oil painting too.Arghh there are so many things I want to learn. I just don't wanna lose my touch with art.

5. Fancy Paper Stuffs and Stationery

 

And that includes fancy agendas, diaries, planners, notepads - as long as they're papers. I love stuffs from Smiggles and kikki.K. Those are the only two that I know of. There's one paper shop that sells lots of great stuffs in Chapel Street but I don't know the name. I love crafty and artsy fartsy stuffs but honestly, I'm not crafty and creative at all. I only like to use or keep them cos looking at them just makes me happy.

6. Food

A year before last, Esther bought me a few packets of Pocky along with some other things for my birthday just because a few days ago I mentioned I love Pocky. So yes, I'm in love with food; junk or not. Gyu tan don (which somebody's bringing back mmm!), Japanese snacks, Japanese food, sushi, sashimi, Shanghai food, ribs, seafood, Italian, Mexican, Spanish... and these are only a few of it. Of course, I also love hawker stalls' food like wantan mee, assam laksa, curry laksa etc etc. What I mean is, treating me meals are great ways as a gift too but again, it's not something I can keep la. I'll most likely write a post about it in my blog and that's probably the only way to remind me of it. But rest assure, I love food! OH MY GOD HOW CAN I FORGET DESSERTS! Lol I still remember when I was at Melbourne, no matter how much I have stuffed myself for lunch or dinner (no breakfast cos we always sleep through it wtf), I always always always have a room for dessert! I get super happy and excited when someone suggests to have dessert! Hee hee. They say I have a 'separated stomache only for desserts' ahahaha. Yam Milk Bubble Tea, Max Brenner, Harajuku Crepe...

7. Cash... or gift cards

Apart from non-monetary gifts, I appreciate 'ang pow's too! It's the best gift cos then I get to use the money to get things that I really like. Other than that, gift cards are great gifts too! For those of you who doesn't know what a gift card is, it basically looks like a credit card but instead of a bank's logo, it has logos of a certain retailer, mall or store for example, MAC. I can't remember exactly how it works since I've only seen it once in a post office in Melbourne, which got me really shocked cos I've never seen such thing as a giftcard before. But basically, there's money inside depending on how much the person has gotten/paid for. So you basically can use the card to 'redeem' stuffs using that amount of money credited into the card! Isn't this the best gift ever?? I know, to some people it may seem like a bloody lazy and insensitive and unthoughtful way of giving gifts but I personally find giftcards a great way to give gifts. At least, that's for me. Instead of risking getting things that I won't like, why not give a giftcard so I can buy things I like within the budget? A lot of times I (and I know many people too) face situations of not knowing what to get someone for their birthday cos first there is a budget, second dunno what he/she likes, third if buy something dunno if he/she will like it. A gift card solves the problem. But sadly, I don't think gift cards are available in Malaysia =( But if you're from Australia, you can get me giftcards cos I visit Melbourne at least once a year! =D I think I also saw that a gift card lasts for about a year or so, if I'm not wrong.

And at this point, I got stucked thinking of what else to put so I guess, there're only 7 things. Here are some things that I don't think are suitable as a gift for me and my reasons to it:

1. Shoes, Clothes and Bags - Unless you know my exact size and you know the kind I like.

2. Jewelries and accesories - Just because I am not a fan of it and I don't like to attract thieves as well. I only wear things that mean a lot to me like my gold necklace given to me by my grandma for my 21st b'day and Wk and I's 4th year anniversary ring. Apart from these two, I pretty much don't wear any kind of jewelry As for accesories, again, unless you know the kind I like.

3. Soft toys - Cos my bed is damn small 'nuff said.


The end!

Walao damn long lol! But yeah. Do take note that this is only a guide, not my wishlist. I have a never ending wishlist and some are things that nobody is capable of giving like getting accepted by Uni of Melbourne, getting a better violin etc. I hope this guide is a good one =)

Itchy Belly

These few days I've been absent mindedly scratching my tummy, right underneath my navel cos it has been so freakin' itchy. I've scratched it so often that that a brown patch is formed and I could even feel bumps and it is STILL itchy even now. Moments ago, I finally took a look at what's going on and figured out what was the problem: it's my freakin' navel stud. I've been wearing it for the longest time now sometimes I don't even remember having it there even though it's a dangling one. It has seriously been there for years, I just never bother replacing it with a non-dangling one. Just now, I turned the 'pendant' around and noticed that...

jeng jeng jeng...

it is RUSTED oh my freakin' god!

It's not as bad as how I exaggerated lah, it's the early stage of the rusting process. There are only brown fine dots. It's not like the whole thing turning into a completely brown thing! That's crazy ok. So anyway, I've decided to take it off and replace with a non-dangling one. Feels kinda weird now, cos now it feels like there's nothing there anymore.

Ok. Just something really random I feel like typing down.

Regarding the recording of my audition CD, it's still not done =(

I was so naive and stupid to have thought that it could be done within 2 hours. Well, it COULD have been if I could play better, or just accept things easily and stop being unsatisfied all the time. Next session is scheduled to next Tuesday, which is the same day Wei Kiat's coming back. And hopefully, that'll be the last session before it gets edited and be ready for my application. Having my accompanist come for so many days to do so many takes of fail recording, I seriously cannot imagine how much he is going to charge me. Seriously hope he can 手下留情 (sau har lau cheng)...

On another note, 3 more days!!! And hopefully, I don't have to do stupid countdowns anymore next year...

Btw, somebody asked me where's my wishlist lol! You know who you are nyehehe. Ok, I'll try to do it soon but it's really hard cos most stuffs that I really really want at the moment are not easy on anyone's wallet hahah and I don't want to sound like I'm expecting things as well! I admit I am a very materialistic person, this is a material world what do you expect? Of course I'll be glad to receive but... I don't want to be seen like I'm such a thick skinned person who expects people to buy me things, you know what I mean? Hrm... I don't know exactly how to describe but yeah, I'll do it really soon. Maybe I won't call it a wishlist but more like a... "Ee Von's Guide to Getting Presents for Ee Von" HAHAAHHAHHA omg it sounds completely self-obsessed! But yeah I figured a 'guide' sounds so much better than a wishlist cos I have so many ridiculous wishes.

Time to sleep now.

"I'm Yours" - Ukulele

Please watch this! It'll definitely make you smile!!! =)



This is probably the only time I find kids adorable. Lol!

Economical & Just Nice VS Expensive & Perfect

Ok. It's finally decided.

My very kind lecturer agreed to let me use his sound recording devices/softwares so I'm saving money on recording my audition. If any of you have been following my twitter, I mentioned,

"should i choose something 'economical & just nice' or something 'expensive & perfect'?"

I was actually talking about recording my audition. I have been really worried and stressed out with deciding the right way to record my audition. Initially, I thought of using the regular sound recorder and go to one of the practice studios in uni and get it done. Then I realised that the sound quality may not be the best. In fact, it may even turn out to be bad. Then I consulted one of the music major in Uni of Melbounre who happens to found my blog and know my situation, and who very kindly dropped me a message too. She told me it's best to record it in a recording studio. Which at first, seemed like a good option but not until I realised I actually need a recording studio which has a piano.

Being an instrumentalist is not something everyone should be envious of. Do you know how much I had to spend just for this audition? I had to attend violin lessons. Approximately RM 100-120 per lesson. I had to rehearse with my accompanist. RM 100 per hour of rehearsal. And renting a recording studio, I'm not sure of the rates but I heard it can be from RM 100 - 500 (or more?) per hour depending on which studio I go to. And it gets more expensive when I'm using a studio which provides a piano. I need not just "a piano". I actually need "a grand piano", or anything that's equivalent to decent. That again marks up the price.

Sorry I digressed. So, a few days ago I went back to uni to just catch up with Cat and a lecturer and I told him about my situation and he suggested I do it in uni cos there's a recording studio in uni, and it's more 'economical' lol. I didn't think of uni at first even when I knew there is a recording studio with sufficient recording devices/softwares cos the studio is a very small one and there isn't any proper piano in it. The only way to do the recording in uni, is to shift all the devices to one of the studios which has a decent grand piano. And the good news is, he agreed to do so.

=)

So I've chosen the 'economical and just nice' option simply because I think it'll most likely be the same anyway just that I'm paying so much more for a more established and well-facilitated studio. The sound quality probably will be better but seriously, this is only an audition. It's not like I'm producing an album or anything like that.

The schedule is I'll be at uni for the whole day to record this and if all goes well, I'll be applying on Thursday!

Oh before I go, just wanna say I've watched New Moon. Hop on to Esther's blog to read about what I think cos we both share the same thoughts on it. Except that I'm with Team Jacob lol!

Tonight...

... is one of the many nights where I feel extremely down, again. It's the audition. And the whole master studies at Uni of Melbourne thing.

Why do people live having to deal with so many things? Why can't we just be happy and free?

Almost back

Ok. One more day and I can then online at the comfort of my home. My dad finally decided to hand us some cash to get a new router and my brother insisted on getting it at some PC fair tomorrow which I don't quite see the point cos I don't think it'll make any difference with the price anyway. I'm at Cat's office in uni, onlining obviously.

Things haven't been really going the way I want them to. Some jerk decided not to reply my message, again. And no I am not going to be a pest. If that's the case, then I'll just let it be. There's no use begging and making myself looke like a freakin' clown. But seriously, if there's one wish I were to make for my birthday, or Christmas, I wish everyone has the slightest courtesy to reply important messages. Seriously.

Ok apart from that, of course I am more materialistic than just wishing for something so unselfish for my birthday hahaha. I might do a wishlist. When I'm done with things. It'll be a Birthday/Christmas Wishlist since my birthday falls on a week before Christmas. *hint hint HINT HINT HINT wtf

Internet Oh Internet

So I was cut off from the world of internet (or is it the internet world?..) for approximately 2 days and I almost died before I finally packed my laptop with me and came to Starbucks Taipan right after work. Aaaaaah finally, the taste of life. Wtf.

Seriously, my life revolves around internet. Twitter, blog, msn, skype, youtube, google, yahoo, etc. I totally cannot do 2 days without internet. Yesterday I went to Maccas in hopes of getting online but was so freakin' disappointed when I couldn't. Ok disappointed's not the right word. Pissed is.

So right now I've been here for the past 2 hours (or more..) and dammit the connection is so good I don't feel like going home eventhough I should really be. I totally wasting my time when I should be practising. Haihhhh. The only bad thing about onlining in Starbucks is that I cannot laugh out loud (literally LOL) when I see/read/hear something funny like this.

It's a torture to not be able to laugh out loud ok? It's worse than constipation. Not that I have anyway. Don't guess whether I'm telling the truth or not. About constipation.

Yes purposely hold that Starbucks mug up just to prove that I'm at Starbucks now.

I asked Wk if there's any difference in the video. What I meant was the lighting and the way I looked. He answered,

"er, there's a 'keluar' and 'no smoking' sign behind you?"

Wtf.

And I'm wearing my favourite panda shirt. I don't understand why my sisters like to pick on me whenever I wear it. It's my favourite shirt. I have a big panda (the WWF logo) at the front. What's wrong with it?

The connection's so good here that I managed to upload this video.

Taken 2 months ago when I was in Melbourne. And I screamed cos when I squeezed the lemon juice it almost went into my eyes. That's what you get when you're too eager to eat something. In other words 'tam sek' hahahaah.

Ok time to go home. Hopefully the connection will not be stupid at home...

Stop Hate Crime

Please spare yourself only 4 minutes to watch this :'(

Murder of Sophie Lancaster

And I thought racism is the only bad thing happening.

If you're living in the UK, click here to find out how you can stand up for her. Otherwise, forward and spread this video cos they're trying to reach a million views to generate an amount for The Sophie Lancaster Foundation.

Unless you're like those people who hate goths and support the destruction of humanity. They cannot even be compared with wild animals, 'cos they're worse.

LOL

- Wei Kiat - says:
 u look pretty

 Ee V❤n - Am I ever gonna be good enough? says:
 cheh
 everytime also say one la

- Wei Kiat - says:
 okla next time dowan say ady
 i take back my words

 Ee V❤n - Am I ever gonna be good enough? says:
 liar
 u sure say one
 its a reflex

- Wei Kiat - says:
 *- Wei Kiat - has recalled the message: u look pretty. please disregard the message as sender is now not held responsible for the message sent.

 Ee V❤n - Am I ever gonna be good enough? says:
 WTF
 HAHAHHAH
 SAMPAT

- Wei Kiat - says:
 hehehehehhe

 Ee V❤n - Am I ever gonna be good enough? says:
 where you get it from

- Wei Kiat - says:
 hahahhahaha
 download la

 Ee V❤n - Am I ever gonna be good enough? says:
 HUH?

- Wei Kiat - says:
 from www.lithatosoubliv.com.wk
 wtf

 Ee V❤n - Am I ever gonna be good enough? says:
 AHHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH
 GO AND DIE LA U

- Wei Kiat - says:
 so slow

 Ee V❤n - Am I ever gonna be good enough? says:
 AHAHHAAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

- Wei Kiat - says:
 omg
 i cant bliv it

 Ee V❤n - Am I ever gonna be good enough? says:
 me too
 i can't believe low wei kiat is so lame
 and the gf so dumb

I know

It hurts to know everytime I talk to you about it I get stressed out and then the next thing I know is I'll feel like crying. And it hurts more when you don't know how to stop it and I will end up crying. I know I am not trying my best. I know I should be. But I also know things sometimes just will not go the way I want them to. And I know it wouldn't have happened if I did try a little harder at first. And I also know there's nothing I can do about it now. Can you please do something?

The bigger my expectation, I know the more it'll disappoint me, some day. And I know same goes to you.

15 December

So, it's not so bad after all =)

Honestly, I am not 'a little' disappointed about not winning. Ok so I lied. I was very disappointed cos I didn't even make it to the 1st or 2nd runner up. And to think that I put in so much of effort in it. I went out with Esther and Wai Tuck in the evening just to make myself forget about this unimportant thing. Afterall, I know I still have people who love what I did. I'll talk more about this in my LJ.

Sad things aside, I have another happy news! =D

Wk is coming back on... *drumrolls

a day before my birthday!

That sucker used my trick. I surprised him (well, sorta if he didn't find out) by going to Melbourne a day before his birthday in September this year and told him that's my b'day present for him, and now, he's using it on me. HE TOLD ME THAT'S MY BIRTHDAY PRESENT WTF.

Hahah. Of course I know it's all planned out just for me. He always try his best to plan in a way where it'll benefit everyone. Especially me. Mememememememememe. Meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee wtf. And that's what I like about him.

He's just finished his year 1 of masters, and now working. He'll be back for 22 days before flying off to Germany for some student exchange thingie for 6 weeks =( and then after that he'll be back in Malaysia and hopefully, HOPEFULLY, if, IF I ever get accepted by Uni of Melbourne, we'll be flying to Melbourne togetha-getha.

Ok before I go, here's something funny which happened just now.

Do you guys know what mynews.com is? If you don't, go Google it. I'm pretty sure all Malaysians know what it is. You may not have heard about it or you may think that you have not seen it but I'm sure you've seen it just that you've never taken the time to look at its name.

So just now we were having dinner and we were discussing if Bukit Raja's TGV still has 2012 tickets cos the place we went was all sold out. Then I suggested we go to mynews.com, read the newspaper to check if 2012 is shown in Bukit Raja's TGV. And then someone said,

"Huh? How? Here no wifi also!"

WTF HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHHHH.

I've got good news and bad news!

Bad news:

I didn't win the other contest which I joined with my CNY inspired. I won't deny that I was disappointed cos I really did put in a lot of thought in creating that look but oh well, this is only the beginning :) But because of this contest, I've gotten some good news!

Some good news:

1. I won that Halloween contest, mentioned this in my previous post.

2. I just hit 100 subscribers! I seriously never expected to get more than even 20 hahahah.

3. My vanity blog was featured in Tongue in Chic! Ownself google. Actually I didn't really know what it was. I've read about it from places and Aileen mentioned about it once but all these while I thought it's like some kinda shop or something hahah! Nevertheless, happy :) All thanks to Gwen!

4. Ok this is actually not a news but more like something that made me happy. After knowing that I didn't win the contest, I got comments from all these kind people telling me they thought that my entry should have won it and all that great stuff. Which really really really made me very very very happy! In a way, I'd like to thank the girl who put up that contest cos without the contest, I wouldn't have entered and if I didn't enter, I wouldn't have gotten so many nice comments and feedbacks!

Ok that's all. I'm leaving for work now. Might go watch 2012 with my 2 buddies later. Bye.

The Winning

Just a really quick update before I go practice.

Remember this?

Some of you who're my friends on Facebook might have known but to those who haven't, I won the little contest that I joined. It's a an online contest, where I'm supposed to create a Halloween Makeup Look tutorial, no specific theme but I'll have to just create something that I'll wear for Halloween. I wasn't the only winner though, just thought everyone should know. There were 4 winners out of 20+ entries. Ok I know a lot of you want to know what the prize is. Really, there's no need to know cos the prize didn't matter to me at all, what matters is that my effort is paid off!

This is my very first time joining this type of contest and I won. Actually to think about it, this may be the first ever contest that I've ever won. I cannot remember if I've joined any contests before.

Ok I'll tell you the prize anyways.

1 Pop Beauty Lip Lust, 3 NYX eye shadows, 1 NYX Jumbo Eye Pencil and 5 Deco Art Nail Polish

Some people may not know what the hell those things are; they're makeup products and some nail products. And I'm so glad to see the prizes that I've won myself cos there're things that I've been wanting! Well, there are also things that I was puzzled to see like the nail products cos if anyone knows me, I hardly do anything to my nails cos it's so short there's nothing much I can do with it. But oh well, I'll figure out what I can do with it. I'm still happy, not just because of the prizes but the fact that I actually won!

I've never expected myself to win cos it was my first contest ever and there were so many great entries out there.

All these only got me thinking a lot and I told Wk,

"I realised that if I really put in effort, there'll sure be good results"

This winning may seem like nothing to some people. True, it's just a small winning but through this winning I discovered that efforts do get paid. It all depends on how much you give out.

And so, I am more determined to practice now. I must get into Uni of Melbourne no matter what happens.

Vlog "Tag: What's in my bag?"

My favourite parts of the conversation we had tonight:

- Wei Kiat - says:
i got a lot of blackheads la
how to clear them out

Ee V❤n - Am I ever gonna be good enough? says:
get blackheads remover la
when u come back we find together

Ee V❤n - Am I ever gonna be good enough? says:
i'm lucky that i don have la
i got whiteheads which are not very obvious also

- Wei Kiat - says:
is mine very the obvious?

Ee V❤n - Am I ever gonna be good enough? says:
er...

- Wei Kiat - says:
means yes lo

Ee V❤n - Am I ever gonna be good enough? says:
err..

- Wei Kiat - says:
bleh

Ee V❤n - Am I ever gonna be good enough? says:
hihihi

Ee V❤n - Am I ever gonna be good enough? says:
but i like
lalala

- Wei Kiat - says:
wtf lithat oso u like

Ee V❤n - Am I ever gonna be good enough? says:
wtf
cos it's on ur face what can i do
wtf
HAHAHHAHAHA

- Wei Kiat - says:
means u prefer don hav

Ee V❤n - Am I ever gonna be good enough? says:
no la
it doesn't bother me also
i like u not because of ur face or anything also
wtf

- Wei Kiat - says:
naha nahahahanahhanaahha

Ee V❤n - Am I ever gonna be good enough? says:
nahahah?
wtf

- Wei Kiat - says:
dunno wat fuck la

Ee V❤n - Am I ever gonna be good enough? says:
wtf
u always make me lol
i like

=)

And this,

Ee V❤n - Am I ever gonna be good enough? says:
fuck la stomok ekk

- Wei Kiat - says:
hahahha
so cute the spelling

Ee V❤n - Am I ever gonna be good enough? says:
heheheh
u understood!

- Wei Kiat - says:
hihihi of coz

and this,

Ee V❤n - Am I ever gonna be good enough? says:
i know u like girls dress up one
not thick makeup

- Wei Kiat - says:
i love u

Ee V❤n - Am I ever gonna be good enough? says:
presentable
some sexiness

- Wei Kiat - says:
u know me too well

Ee V❤n - Am I ever gonna be good enough? says:
lalaal
of course la
cos i'm the example
WTF
HAHAHHAAHHA

- Wei Kiat - says:
yay!!
collek

and this,

Ee V❤n - Am I ever gonna be good enough? says:
ya real smart ppl don't talk about the things they study so often one

- Wei Kiat - says:
yet they know more n do better job

Ee V❤n - Am I ever gonna be good enough? says:
like me wtf
but i'm not smart la. i really dunno that's why don't talk about it HHAHAHAH

- Wei Kiat - says:
wtf
nth to say
all u say finish liao

Ee V❤n - Am I ever gonna be good enough? says:
hihihi
i'm just trying to be funny

- Wei Kiat - says:
dumb or smart u define eveyrthing liao

Ee V❤n - Am I ever gonna be good enough? says:
i think caffeine high

- Wei Kiat - says:
hihhiihi
i know

and this,

Ee V❤n - Am I ever gonna be good enough? says:
my phone almost no crdit
why ah
i tot u holiday d
work ah
oooh yahor

- Wei Kiat - says:
work ah
everyday

Ee V❤n - Am I ever gonna be good enough? says:
ok luckily i answer first
means i know u
unlike u
sometimes u dunno one

- Wei Kiat - says:
if not no money to pay off everything

Ee V❤n - Am I ever gonna be good enough? says:
so not understanding
hm

- Wei Kiat - says:
bleh

Ee V❤n - Am I ever gonna be good enough? says:
HAHHAHAHAH

- Wei Kiat - says:
saje wanna kena me
bleh

Ee V❤n - Am I ever gonna be good enough? says:
lalalala

- Wei Kiat - says:
my wan so easy
work means eveyrdya work chieh

Ee V❤n - Am I ever gonna be good enough? says:
wtf
mine very hard meh
weekends only ma
u knew all these while every friday i got work
dunit fight one
cos i'll win in the end
HAHAHAHAHHAHAH

- Wei Kiat - says:
hahhahahah
okla, white flag
nite

Ee V❤n - Am I ever gonna be good enough? says:
HAHAHHAHHA

and this, (last one I promise)

Ee V❤n - Am I ever gonna be good enough? says:
nice armpit hair
wtf

- Wei Kiat - says:
u don hav
hehehhe

- Wei Kiat - says:
but i like u don hav
hihihi

Ee V❤n - Am I ever gonna be good enough? says:
of cos la wtf
wah that means everytime i don shave u don like la
HAHAHHAHAHH

- Wei Kiat - says:
nola
ok sleep

Hahahah I like to bully him. I like it when he's speechless and gives up when jokingly arguing with me =D

Gosh I miss him so much.

Ok a video tag cos I'm feeling random.

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The Time Traveler's Wife (Movie)

So I've finally watched The Time Traveler's Wife and again, I'll have to admit that I totally suck at giving any type of reviews so I'll just put it as simple as it's a great movie which pretty much portrays most, if not everything essential from the book except that, of course, usually people tend to love books over its adaptations, agree? This is definitely not exempted. Still, to me it's a great one.

I even prepared a packet of tissue and not just the normal small packet of face tissue. I brought the big ones, in a big pack. Not on purpose though, I couldn't find any of those small packets in my house so I just grabbed that before leaving the house. It came in handy! It's the pop-up pack kinda tissue where you tear the top of the plastic and pull the tissue out and the next one will come out halfway. I placed it at the handrest in between seats, Esther and I conveniently used the tissue throughout the movie! Hahaha.

To me, the book is a lot more sad. The adaptation is slightly altered, and made to end in a 'happy ending' kinda way. It's actually a lot more tragic in the book and I cried so much harder reading it than watching the movie. Also, I noticed that everything was kind of a rush in the movie but oh well, to make a 500++pages story into a 1.5-2 hours motion picture is definitely not an easy thing! I would say it is quite a well directed movie considering that most of the essential parts in the book are there. Oh. One thing though, I actually expected to see Gomez as a handsome blonde hunk but... he's not haha. Oh oh oh, one more. I was kind of disappointed that they didn't show the scene where an 80++ year old Clare is waiting for Henry who time traveled to the future. I personally think that'd be the perfect way of ending the movie. The ending now is kind of... bleahh. Not bad but because I've read the book, I kinda expected more from it if you know what I mean.

Anyway, to me, I love the movie but I absolutely love the book more.

Ok before clicking 'Publish Post', just wanna show you all my Chinese New Year inspired makeup look.


More pictures on the other blog cos I know I look kinda scary but rest assured I'm not crazy, this is just an entry for a little online contest.

Ok bye!

The Time Traveler's Wife

The light is changing. Clare stirs, turns toward me, onto her side. I study her face. There are a few faint lines, at the corners of her eyes and mouth, that are the merest suggestion of the beginnings of Clare's face in middle age. I will never see that face of hers, and I regret it bitterly, the face with wich Clare will go on without me, which will never be kissed by me, which will belong to a world that I won't know, except as a memory of Clare's, relegated finally to a definite past.



Reading that part immediately broke me into tears. And not just getting teary and sniffy, I was crying as if I've lost someone or something I adore the most. Also, Henry's letter to Clare where he mentioned how he's seen her in the future when she was an old woman. Omg everything is so beautiful but sad at the same time!

In the early part of this book I wasn't as intrigued cos to me it was just some normal love story going on except that it has a little bit of ridiculous thing which is how it is possible that someone time travels. As I read on I realised it doesn't matter anymore, cos what's more interesting is what happens when he time travels.

I suck at giving reviews but I have to say, this book is very well written. The beginning didn't bore me as much as Life of Pi did but both books are great to me in a different way. Life of Pi is an inspiring book talking about life, The Time Traveler's Wife is a book that breaks your heart and at the same time show you how love can be so beautiful.

Aaaaah wanna watch the movie! I hope it does the book justice.

Crap. My eyes are swollen from all that crying last night.

102 More Days Till I Call It A Year!

I can't believe it! It has been about 9 months since I started doing Project 365! I'm left with only 101 days and it's officially something I started off a year ago! Time flies or what!

I got kinda lazy to edit and all so, it has been 20 days since the last one. Crazy.

#244 - No I didn't get punched in the eye it's just me experimenting with makeup.


#245 - I helped my sister to straighten her hair with my straightening iron.


#246 - Played with makeup again.


#247 - I love this day's makeup look!


#248 - Greenbox =)


#249 - I was looking at MAC's website and decided to draw this thing they have.


#250 - Makeup day.


#251 - Lalala.


#252 - You can't tell from this picture but in the unedited one, my skin looked super clear! Which I am so happy about cos my skin has never been so clear for the longest time. All the religious cleansing, toning, moisturizing, mask-ing and exfoliating, all the extra 15 minutes spent every night and day was worth it! Oh except for my chin, the scars are still quite obvious so that's why I cut it off hahaha.


#253 - Another boring day. Everytime you see a picture of my face, it means that day's boring and there's nothing much to show but my uninteresting face.


#254 - My peacock inspired look haha.


#255 - I love rainbows colours!


#256 - My favourite eyeshadow so far.


#257 - How I look like when I sing.


#258 - Makeup day.


#259 - If you read my post, I've mentioned this day before. The day I went out with the people who teach in the same music centre as I do, the day I got called cool.


#260 - Another boring day with a picture of me


#261 - Cos I've never posted printscreen pictures of us for quite some time already =)


#262 - I love Japanese snacks! That Fran Whipps is the awesomest thing everrrr!


#263 - Was experimenting with makeup. Expect some inspired look soon :)

Ok done. Practice time.

Vlog "Audition & Pink Pringles"

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A Short Update

1. I didn't get anything from the Balm. My plan was to go there on Thursday but on Wednesday, I thought I wanted to just drop by MAC @ Sunway Pyramid to pick up a few stuffs since I had an hour before work starts. I ended up buying a whole crapload from MAC so... I could have bought the things I wanted from the Balm but I figured there's no point getting too many similar things. In a shorter phrase, I'm broke. Wtf. I was even late for work HAHAHA.

2. That ranty post down there, well. That guy finally replied and I'll be seeing him tomorrow. But I'm a little nervous now cos my pieces aren't really ready yet T___T

3. I'm left with about 100 pages of The Time Traveler's Wife and then I can go watch the movie! Who wants to go with me? Anyone? No one? Fine, I can go alone.

5. If I'm not updating very often, it means I'm busy preparing my audition tape. But oh who am I kidding. The last time I said this, look what's happening now! But oh please oh please, just let me focus T____T

4. Lastly, entertain yourself =)

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Cool

I was out with a group of people today and it was so freakin' awkward. They are people from one of the music centres I teach at. It was a gathering to celebrate my boss's early birthday. I usually do not join gatherings like these cos:

1. I am not close to people in music centres.
2. I don't talk much to people I'm not close with.
3. All in all, you can almost call me an anti-social freak.

And all these while I thought I have changed since my secondary school days. During that time, I have the reputation of being the 'coolest' girl. When I say 'cool', it does not mean in a hip and/or trendy way. At all.

It simply means I'm unfriendly, in a nicer and more polite term of course. When new people talk to me, they would simply use the word 'cool' to describe me or regard me as 'cool'.

And I thought I have changed and became more 'warm'.

I was wrong.

Until today, people still use the word 'cool' to describe me.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not getting angry here. Honestly, this situation amuse me. I know 'cool' only mean 'unfriendly' but somehow, I find it cool to be called 'cool', you know what I mean? HAHAHAHAHA. Syok sendiri.

Anyway, yeah I guess after all these years, I haven't changed a single bit. I am 'cool' towards people I don't know or people I am not close with. I open up only to people I know AND am close with. There's a difference between people I know, and people I know AND am close with ok?

Ask all my close friends, I don't think they'll ever use the word 'cool' to describe me. They would most likely say I'm vain, lame, random, crazy etc etc but not cool.

But yeah. I guess being 'cool' is my... signature? Wtf.

It's not done on purpose anyway.

Peacock Inspired

I posted "I'm a peacock!" to my Twitter and I had 3 people telling me "wtf" hahahah. Yeah 3's not a lot that's because I don't follow many people, I only follow people I know. Which also means I don't know many people hahah.

Anyway, I did this peacock-inspired look for a little online contest. Well, technically it's not my original idea, more like a recreation. It's supposed to be a Halloween makeup look contest. I know, we don't celebrate Halloween here and even if we do, it's over. So I was only doing this for fun and since I was already having fun, I thought I might as well join the contest.

Since I don't want to spam this blog with so many (scary? haha) vain pictures of myself, I'm only posting one. The rest will be in my vanity blog.

Finally my Ardelle lashes came out to play. FYI, I hate wearing false eyelashes. Which was why I didn't even bother sticking it onto my lashline hahaha! It still has that tackiness without the glue so I simply stuck it onto my lashline and quickly took pictures.

Ok gtg.

Random Stuffs

Omg the itch to buy things is freakin' me out. Every second I think of what I want to buy and it's only the 2nd day of November! Seriously, can die man. Wk's right, when we live together, I should hand him ALL my money and he shall be the one to control the flow.

I seriously need a new night time moisturizer cos my BodyShop Time Release Capsule's finishing. It's a 28 days treatment thingie and I'm left with my last 4 capsules already. And another foundation cos I just realized that the current one I'm using, which is new anyway, is too light for my skin tone. It makes me look stark white not only in pictures, even my mom said so! Ugh the horror. Not gonna throw it away anyway, it's still money spent! I'll probably get a darker shade and mix them.

Ok since Wk's not going to sleep tonight cos he's rushing for his submission, I'll stay up with him by practising =) We have our videos and skype on. It's as though we're right next to each other, working really hard =)

Oooh I just found out The Time Traveler's Wife the movie's out already! Gosh I'm still left with 200++ pages. Gotta speed up.

Ok time to go. Have a great week everyone.

the Balm

Omg the Balm is finally here in Malaysia! I first saw people using it in Youtube a long time ago but it didn't interest me as much as when I saw it in Melbourne at Kit. It was ridiculously overpriced there so I didn't buy anything. Actually, almost ALL cosmetics in Australia are more expensive than what they really cost - whether in the US or in Malaysia. Which explains why, I only bought stuffs that I cannot find in Malaysia. MAC, Benefit, Shiseido, Maybeline, Revlon - just name anything that Malaysia has - it's all so much more expensive in Australia. What a bummer =( That doesn't mean stuffs that are not available in Malaysia, are cheap either. They are STILL a lot more expensive cos I compared to the prices in the US. Australia, bloody moneysucking country. And oh god I cannot imagine how I am going to shop for my makeup stuffs if I'm going there next year T____T

So anyway, the Balm!!! If it wasn't for the Nuffnang banner I have in my blog, I wouldn't even know it's already here in Malaysia! Starting from today! They're having some roadshow at MidValley and I can't wait to drop by and check out their stuffs, now that it's more affordable! Click here if anyone is interested.

Ok, I'm not saying the stuffs are exactly cheap, they ARE considered expensive but to compare with the price in Melbourne, this is definitely wayyy cheaper.

I just got my cheque today yayy! So I'll have to wait till (earliest :D) Wednesday before the money is transfered then I can drive up to MidValley and check out their stuffs and MAYBE (aka most probably hahaha) pick up some stuffs!

A few goodies that I MIGHT get:

Shady Lady - I don't think I need to explain on this. I have always been crazy over eyeshadows palettes. You know, it's selling at AUD 84.95 (around RM265) in Australia but it's only RM 120 here. Stupid right?


time Balm Concealer - This is is something that sounds interesting. I might buy this just because it claims that it combats wrinkles while it conceals, I might not buy this just because I still have a lot more of my concealer. Will decide after testing it.

Lip Plumper Trio - Just because I don't have that many lip glosses (yet HAHA) and this looks like a pretty good deal. But I have a feeling Malaysia might not have this... we'll see.

Bahama Mama - Cos I need a proper contouring powder, I cannot cannot CANNOT keep using my eyeshadows anymore! And besides, this stuff can also be used as a bronzer. 2 in 1 price! Oh, this is AUD 32.95 (RM 103) but it's only (I'm guessing) RM60 here.

I am quite tempted to get their blushers only because the packaging's too hard to resist but meh. They only have like 3 colours to choose from and I already have pretty good blushers similar to those colours so... I'll just skip that.

So instead of their blushers which don't look that interesting, I'm interested in this!


Stainiac - Another 2 in 1 price product, a cheek and lip stain! Although I doubt its lasting power... I shall try it out regardless!

Check the website out! I personally think it's really cute. The packaging at some point does resemble Benefit's products. It doesn't really bother me though cos I'm a sucker for packaging sometimes, I'd go with anything adorable. And besides, Benefit is so expensive. This one is not really cheap but at least, to compare with Benefit it's more affordable.

My Wish

I'm in a lovey dovey mood now so if you can't stand stuffs like that, don't bother reading.

I was reading The Time Traveler's Wife and came upon this page which talks about how much Clare wants to chop her hair off but can't because Henry loves it and then she says she will miss it but it's just so much effort. It felt so familiar reading all that because, for the longest time I have always wanted to cut my hair short (when my hair was super duper long) and when I say short, I mean super short. Has anyone ever noticed how long my hair used to be?


Crap would you look at that? It reached my hips. My freakin' hips.

And honestly, I do miss it T_T

Not that my hair's super short now. It's heavily layered and the length still remained about the same but it doesn't look as long as it was, like in that picture anymore just because it's much thinner now. The reason I kept the length is because, like Clare, I know I will definitely miss it and also, Wk loves my long hair (he tells me that, I didn't assume this myself ok) and I know he'll definitely be upset if I cut it short.

Anyway, I must say, having it layered has been the best thing I could do for my hair cos all my split ends are now gone, it's more manageable, it doesn't tangle as much, it's easier to comb and the best part is I still get to keep the length eventhough it might not look as long as before :)

Ok I know, that's like totally random. I just thought I would share that small part of that novel here cos I can relate to it so much. That book has been ok. I won't say it's as interesting as Life of Pi but I do enjoy reading it. It's so freakin' thick lah 500 pages wtf. Probably need another month or two to finish it cos I only do about 8-10 pages a day.

Ok that aside, I have been missing Wk so damn freakin' much these few days. We skype/msn /webcam almost every single day. We sometimes wake each other up. And the best part is, we motivate each other to do what we're supposed to do - I'm supposed to practice, he's supposed to work on his design. And I must say, having him around is sooooo much better cos otherwise, I won't even bother to take my violin out!

Everytime I look at him in my laptop's screen, I think of the day we're going to live together, in OUR apartment, OUR room, OUR kitchen, OUR bed, OUR computer (haha next time about this), OUR place. And it just motivates me to want to work hard and just get freakin' get accepted by the university.

The next time I go to Melbourne, I'm expecting to say... "OUR" apartment instead of "HIS" apartment, or "HIS" bed. The next time I we wish each other "good morning nigga" (inside joke), I want to be able to laugh right in front of him and not just typing "ha ha ha" and punch 'Enter' on the keyboard. And the next time I expect all these, is next year.

The more I think about all these, the more I want to practice, and the more I think about all these, the more I'm afraid of rejection. It's stressing me out seriously.

This is not just a diploma or a degree. It's a master studies. It's not something you can apply by sending in a bunch of papers and forms and whatnot. I sometimes wonder if I'm actually fit, or good enough to apply. A lot of people tell me I can do it and I can get in and all that. I know everyone's being nice but whether they really think I am good enough, I don't know. What I know is I want to just do my best, and apply and hope for the best.

But I constantly think about a lot of 'what if's. What if I get rejected?

I cannot take rejection. At all. Not at this stage now. He has given up the contract and hasn't even found a new accomodation, all because he's expecting me. How can I even deal with a rejection when I'm thrown with all these expectations?

Another reason to not being able to handle rejection is that I seriously cannot stand this LDR any longer anymore.

I just want to stay beside him and have someone to touch my hair. I just want to stay beside him and have someone to keep me warm. I just want to stay beside him and have someone to tell me how much he loves me everyday, right to my face and not through the computer or phones. I'm just someone who's like many others out there, who needs her dose of affection everyday. I hope it's not too much to ask for.

(Cover) Taylor Swift's "You Belong With Me" FAIL!!!

So I know I haven't been updating and that's because I'm busy with... things (actually nothing much but I just wanna make myself feel a little bit better by saying I'm busy haha!) and there's nothing much to talk about anyway.

Let me just entertain you with my super failed take on Taylor Swift's "You Belong With Me". I love that song. Not that I can relate to the lyrics but I only like the music. There's a difference ok. I like the melody, how simple the chords go but yet the music's good. If you listen carefully (only music ppl can understand this), the chords are actually repeating all the way. There's not even modulation or anything. And all her songs are simple like that, but they sound great. She totally made me fall in love with country+pop and she's only 19! So young and talented. Her songs are very typical teenage love songs with cheesy lyrics but admit it, you sing along to her songs when you listen to it! You pick it in karaoke! Admit it! And I'm not talking about just girls ok, I've seen a lot of guys singing to her songs too.

Before watching, yes I have a lot of makeup slapped onto my face yes I went out of tune a little yes I'm such a loser cos I tell you how much I love this song and then I can't even sing it properly but that's because this is only my 1st attempt ok so don't expect too much lah!

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Anyone wants me to do a full cover? =D I promise I won't fail.

Ok bye.

EevIsVain

I just realised that I've been abandoning my update on Project 365 for 11 freaking days! But I did take pictures every single day. Most of them are my self-obsessed, camwhore pictures cos I was and have been playing a lot with makeup lately haha.


#233 - Hahah cheating picture. Took this today but every other day I have been practising so, my violin is always hung that way onto my music stand.


#234 - Like I said, was playing with make up.


#235 - And I mean A LOT of makeup. I know my face looks a little too white in this picture, it happens all the time when I take pictures with flash.


#236 - My 10 samples of eye pigments from Lumiere came this day. Loving them!


#237 - Another makep day. Wah I think this was my best mascara-application day! Look at my lashes like false ones!


#238 - Ok I look super hideous here that's because I was experimenting with colours on my bare face. Didn't have anything on so it looked really ridiculous.


#239 - Another attempt on natural/neutral-looking makeup!


#240 - I was at uni and when I was done with things, it was peak hour so I dropped by MidValley and... yeah. But I needed most of them anyway! Only the MAC eyeshadows and the Anna Sui Ring Rouge were impulse purchases...


#241 - After about a year or 2 of colour blue/violet/gray contacts, I'm finally going back to black. Still not used to it though :/


#242 - I've been looking for the MAC Pro Eyeshadow Palette for the longest time! It's a palette with 15 empty eyeshadow slots made to fit eyeshadows pans, so you can customize it with any eyeshadow colours you like - MAC ones of course. A few days ago Melissa left me a message in my chatbox saying the MAC store in Kuching sells it and I got a little surprised cos I have never thought any MAC stores in Malaysia sells it only because I've never seen them on display haih. So when I was at MidValley a few days ago, I dropped by MAC and asked about it and tadahhh! They have it! I bought it immediately eventhough I don't have 15 eyeshadows (yet!). On top of that, I bought 2 more eyeshadows so now I have 4 in my collection and I depoted them yesterday and woohoo, success! Ok if you don't know makeup you probably won't know about depoting.


#243 - My lunch today. Taking that picture was crazy, if you notice, I had to use my left hand to use the chopsticks and grab the noodle, and my right hand to click capture on my webcam. I am a righthander and my left hand cannot work for nuts. Oh except for playing the violin and piano of course haha.

Ok before I end this, let me just make an announcement that I've created another blog where I post all my self-obsessed, vain, makeup or anything beauty-related pictures and also blog about them of course.

I decided to make another page for that simply because I personally find it a little too messy to have too many things at once in one post like... I talk about a trip somewhere and then suddenly I go on about my own face. Maybe I'm just being sensitive but I personally prefer reading a post or a blog that is not too jumbled up, if you know what I mean. So I was thinking if I prefer my posts/blog to be that way what if there are readers who prefer it too? I know very well myself that I'm basically quite obsessed with makeup now and taking pictures of myself lol so I don't want to gradually turn this completely into a blog of that kind. I still want to keep this blog as a personal blog, an online update about my life for my friends who read me.

So just letting you know, if you're as obsessed with makeup/beauty or if you can tolerate 8712310 pictures of my face, you can catch me here. I'm not trying to promote this webpage hence, such an understated link (haha like lah a lot of people read me) because like I said, it's all about my face and my obsession which I won't post that much here anymore so if you like all that (you stalker hahaahah), feel free to check me out there.

Ok gtg bye!