Even though it's only 6 weeks

I know nobody likes dealing with goodbyes but I know nobody feels the same about goodbyes.

Everytime I stand in the airport facing the departure gate saying goodbye, I always have this question repeatedly banging inside my head,

" Why do I have to go through this? Why humans have to go through this? Why do certain people need to be apart? "

Over the years I've grown much stronger to all these farewells but the pain, the sadness and emptiness have never gone away from me. I know I'll get over it within days (sometimes, hours) but if I get to choose, I'd rather not go through all it at all.

Today I walked away from the airport and wished it'll be the last goodbye we'll have to say to each other. At the same time I felt so afraid of rejection, of when things don't go the way I prayed them to be. I feel it every day, every minute and every hour.

He'll be gone to Germany for only 6 weeks but when he gets back, there're only 3... possibilities. Two good, one bad.

1. I've already left, for orientation.

2. I'll be around, and will be leaving with him.

3. I'll be around, and staying back.

We've been staying so positive up till now, hoping for the best, planning for the best possibility. But I still cannot help but to be afraid of the unexpected.

Gosh I am so freakin' worried.

Ramble Ramble

I'm gonna just post up a couple of pictures from Project 365 that urm... matters haha.

 Pictures from the graduation photoshoot which I got back quite a while ago. In fact, a few months ago.

 

 My sister playing with my shades and my unwanted fake eyelashes which I've cut into half.

 

A new external hard drive! Or is it called hard disk? Nevermind. It's a Western Digital and they call it "My Passport" and it comes in a few colours. White looks damn cool so I got it. I got it cos both my internal and my external are filling up T___T

 

 Ok so this is how I actually look like without all that gunk I slap on my face sometimes.

 You know what's this? This is the BEST food in the world. GYU TAN DON.

 First few presents I received on my birthday! =) I was on Wk's bed about to sleep when I felt something's near my feet cos I accidentally kicked on it and when I got up and check I saw all these nicely laid down. =)

 

A tape rewinder! Or whatever it is called! Omg I haven't seen this thing in like... more than a decade! I remember when I was younger there's one in my old home cos my grandma used to rent those soaps and back then when cds and dvds weren't around yet, they were all in chunky tapes! And this is the thing that's used to rewind the tapes to the beginning of the series/shows!

Went to Malacca and had Durian Cendol. Nice!

 

On New Years Eve, cool people meet up at either one's house, drink champagne and chat through MSN and webcam eventhough they're only 1.5 metres away from each other.

 

On New Years Day, cool people take pictures of their own reflection on Christmas tree balls!

 

 Whoa don't I look cool wtf.

 

Finally bought a pair of new flip flops.

My previous Reef one has surprisingly served me for a good 1 year! Seriously, none of my Roxy flip flops have ever lasted that long. I mean the rubber ones. They're really lousy. I even slipped on a puddle of water and fell when I was wearing one which was quite worn out and by worn out, I don't mean it's in an uber bad condition or anything it's just that the base has gotten smoother.

And since my puppy is growing, his teeth have been constantly itchy. Any shoes/slippers left outside on the floor will get chewed. My Reef flip flops was one of the unlucky ones but surprisingly, it wasn't too damaged. I could still wear it for a while. My sister's Roxy flip flops became its toy one day and when we saw it the next day, half of one side of her flip flops were gone.

Conclusion: Reef makes good flip flops.

My Reef flip flops actually isn't too damaged anyway. It's still really safe to walk in it, I have never experienced any slippery moments even up till now. It's just that the 'thong' part and the base where the soles of my feet stands on are kinda torn (my dog's great job) and it really does look quite worn out and ridiculous. Apart from all that, it's still functioning pretty well. But I thought it's about time to get a new one already so I got the Roxy one in the picture above.

I know I just complained about Roxy flip flops but this one is not the regular rubber kind so I'm hoping it won't disappoint me. I wanted to get back something form Reef but the store I went to didn't carry any Reef stuffs anymore. Boo =( And I'm just too lazy to go elsewhere to find it cos by the time I actually find one, I am most probably broke already haha.

Ok I'm done rambling. Good night. Wk's sleeping over. He thought we're going to sleep on the same bed which is ridiculous cos it's a single bed and I'm not going to squeeze with him on one bed when there's another bed for him to sleep on. Haha. Ok ramble ramble blablabla. Bye.

Durian Cendol

Back from Malacca!

Yeah no big deal cos nobody cares anyway hahaha. I had a great, great time there. Not so much about the place nor the food though cos I've been there before. It's the amount of laughters and snappy, sarcastic moments we had. With great company comes great place.

Now, I need to freakin' wash my hair.

Signing off,
猪妹
(non halal word HAHAHHAHAHHAHA)

A day with good internet connection

I do notice that I've been abandoning my Project 365 but I did not notice it's been almost two months now! Technically, I didn't exactly abandon it cos I still do take pictures except that I haven't been doing it on a daily basis. So yesterday I was contemplating whether to persevere and finish what I first started, or what the heck, just freakin' give up cos who takes pictures every single day anyways!

I decided in the end that I should just go on with it. I think I shall also make a little confession here that I cheated in my Project 365 cos some are just 'filler' pictures and what I mean by 'filler' pictures is pictures that are not taken on the day/date it's stated, but they are taken on some other day and I dated it that way so that I have something to fill in the gap or on the day I did not take pictures. Geddit?

Who cares anyway right?

And since there's more than 30 pictures, I'm not going to post all of them here so I'll just put a link to my Project 365 Album in my Facebook which I'm not even sure if people who aren't my friends can view it... but whatever lah I don't think anyone's gonna click on it anyway. (Anyone noticed I kept saying 'anyway'? Super annoying...)

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=29577&id=554637212&saved#/album.php?aid=123925&id=554637212

Ok now, guess what? Somebody freakin' bought a MacBook Pro for me!!!

Hahahah joking of course. Wk bought it cos since he's going to Germany he needs a mobile computer for his studies and his old one is too old already so that's why he bought it. And the reason he bought a MacBook Pro is...

not telling hahahahaha. So technically it belongs to him but since I'm a leech (inside joke tee hee), of course I get to use it too lalalala. Walao so damn nice I loikeeeeeeeeeee!

Obligatory picture with the 'pop art' effect  using the MacBook Pro's iSight!

Forgot what this effect's called.

The 'fish eye' effect!

Everything else in the laptop's super cool too! Argh now I want one for myself. My stupid laptop has been driving me nuts lately.

Some past events include...

my mom's birthday,

my sister's birthday a day after my mom's and my own birthday.

Lastly, some food pictures you readers can salivate at hahahaha.

People who are close to me knows that I love Tony Roma's. I especially love their Dinner Combo which comes with 2 pieces of beef ribs and 3 sidelines which I will always ask for their corn, baked potato and grilled shrimp!

Dinner Combo

On the day I finally got my application settled, we (Wk and I) went to Pyramid and had Tony Roma's for dinner. Along with their Dinner Combo, we ordered something which I've never tried before which is the Tony's Sampler which consists of three 'sample' sizes of their starters.

DAMN NICE!!!

There's the Buffalo Wings, Dips (stuffed potato skins) and Onion Loaf. Onion Loaf was only ok but still worth trying. The other two was super nice!

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Now, We Wait.

Finally, after half a year of planning on applying to study in Uni of Melbourne, it's finally done yesterday. Something unexpected happened though. When I was waiting for the university's representative to waive the AUD100 assessment fee, I was told that it cannot be waived because my qualifications actually didn't meet the entry requirements. I was on the verge of throwing a fit because I couldn't believe what I heard. I have been preparing this for so long and I have even visited the IDP office more than twice, consulting the people there, telling them the exact course and only after I have spent so much of money and time getting everything ready, they told me I didn't have the right qualifications. Seriously, what the fuck.

I initially read from the website that the Masters in Music Studies only require a Bachelor's Degree in Art majoring in music, which was why I thought I was only eligible for only that course cos the rest require a Bachelor in Music, which is not what I have. It didn't specify exactly how long my course should have been so I took it that I actually qualify? Later on the representative told me that I actually need an Honors year, which means a 4th year of study to qualify myself for it. My degree was only 3 years. And there's no Honors year for it.

After some debating and some clarification, I decided to do the Postgradue Diploma instead. It's equivalent to an Honors year of study so by taking this, I'll be able to do any other Master studies in the future.

And my audition, thank goodness it didn't come out to be a waste of time and money. An audition CD of 30 minutes, which was what I have already prepared, was required so in the end all I had to do was just changing the course I wrote. And the assessment fee was waived too.

But the bad news is, because the closing date for application's Christmas Eve and IDP's next courier service is next Thursday which IS, Christmas Eve, I had to send my application out myself on that day itself. Went to DHL and paid RM170++ for everything and it's that expensive because there's a freakin' CD, my audition CD. Without it, it's only RM70++. KNN!!!

But yeah, application's finally done and now, I'll have to wait till next January or February to get their reply.

I twittered of not wanting to see IDP anymore. I'm taking that back. I hope I'll get to see them again cos the next time I need to see them, is when I actually get accepted.

My 2X-th Birthday :)

I got back after 2 long, long days and checked my Hotmail and saw " _2 New Messages" and I told Wk,

" Wtf I got _2 new messages! My inbox is always cleared wan! "

And he said,

" Sure kena spammed lo "

-______-

" Stupid, its birthday wishes laaaaaaa "

Anyway, _2 is a number with the first figure not revealed (isn't it obvious...) cos I don't want to sound like I'm bragging so you can guess all you want but seriously, I've never gotten so many messages before! All these while, my phone will keep buzzing or ringing due to incoming messages but no, I've not gotten even _2 SMSes as well. This year my phone only buzzed a few times. I think there's only about 10 birthday SMSes? And I was thinking sadly to myself, the older I get, the more people forget about me. Until I see _2 New Messages! Crazy!

Thank you so much everyone! Whether or not you wished me in advance, on the day itself or belated. I appreciate every wish cos it's always better to be late than never! =) That's why, I replied to each and every one of the wishes cos I honestly, sincerely, truly appreciate it!

Someone asked what I've wished for this year. I almost forgot about wishes that's because I didn't get a cake this year. My parents were out for a formal dinner so we didn't get a cake and sing a birthday song and blow candles. Heck even if there is a cake it's not that we ever make wishes anyway. Btw, this is NOT a hint to anyone to get me a cake ok.

So, usually I don't make wishes unless I celebrate it with friends who get me a cake or something. But if I were to wish, I wish my application will get accepted by Uni of Melbourne.

So far, I've gotten 3 presents and they are all stuffs I've mentioned in my Ee Von's Guide to Getting Gifts for Ee Von (wtf how did I even came up with such a self-obsessed title)! It's so crazy! I'm contemplating whether or not to talk about them presents cos again, I don't want to sound like I'm bragging but I so want to tell the world how great my friends are!! Argh should I or should I not?

Anyway the best present this year has got to be...

MY AUDITION CD IS FINALLY DONE!!!

And a better news is I don't have to spend a diamond on it! I mean, it's not free of course but the amount is so much lesser than what I was expecting so that's a GOOD GOOD GOOD news ok! I am so freaking excited and happy and sleepy at the same time.

Seriously, it got so freaking hectic that I've been having 2 cups of coffee everyday.

And I can't even sleep now until I get all my application stuffs prepared! Will be heading to IDP tomorrow to get it done and over with! And then I'll hang around in some mall with Wk and waste time before I go back home and...

SLEEP AT LEAST 12 FREAKING HOURS I'M SERIOUS.