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Yay!:

After that news, there's nothing I was happy about already.

Boo!:

It happened so quickly. One minute, I received a package and was really excited but was turned down cos it's not from the uni but some stuffs I bought online a while ago. Then I received an email from an agent in IDP whom I've been dealing with all these while. I asked her for her help last week to see if the uni has sent any reply cos it's been more than 3 weeks since they received my application. When I saw that email from her, my heart skipped a bit and I started praying. Ok maybe not praying since I've never prayed. But I was hoping to see something good. Instead, these words "I'm sorry but your application is unsuccessful" made me stunned. I didn't feel as bad until I saw the PDF file, a scan of a supposingly the uni's letter to me which I've yet to receive.  I broke down little by little and have been crying nonstop that it's making everywhere hurts. My jaw, my nose, my eyes (its so swollen I can't even open it properly now haih) and my head. It's not that I don't want to stop crying. Everytime I think about another goodbye, it just shatters my heart. I admit part of the misery is because I have spent so much money just to prepare that fucking audition cd. To reapply, I need to spend another sum. And my dad always say I don't save money. How do I save my money when I need to pay for so many things each time? Those aren't the point anyway. Haih.

Random:

Just to hide my fugly crying face.

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This is not a yay boo random post.

In case you are wondering, my application was rejected. I thought I could accept it when it happens since I did expect the worst scenario. I was wrong. I cannot. If you think I'm wallowing in self pity, yes I am. Let me, at least for now.

I don't know what to do next.

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Yay!:
No work!

Boo!:
Where's my reply...

Random:
My sister got scolded and spanked really badly just now. She totally deserved it. It started with her crying for no reason. And when my mom got really irritated with her crying and not wanting to tell the reason, my mom started scolding her. Welcome to my family - no such thing as "What's wrong dear? Why are you crying?" more than once. If my mom asked nicely one time, you better tell. If not, god bless you wtf. So anyway, after scolding her and forcing her with a rotan, my sis finally spilled it out and it was an extremely EXTREMELY STUUUUPID reason ok. That's why I say she deserved it.

Hotdogs

Yay!: 

The only time I stepped out of my house is a few hours ago, to A&W's with Esther cos I had cravings for hotdogs and I almost died of boredom at home. Oh! This morning before my dad went out he kinda yelled at me again about not finding a job blablabla not saving/having money to buy CNY clothes blablabla. I was thinking "just hand me the fckin cash only lah" wtf hahahaah. And before he went out with mom he passed me the moolah =D And then when they got back my mom actually bought me a facial cleanser and a scalp care shampoo wow! And it wasn't some generic cleanser or shampoo ok, they're the professional ones. Honestly, I don't know what to say about my parents. They're so weird and funny in a way sometimes.

Boo!: 

I slept really late yesterday night (about 4am) and today my mom woke me up and she asked me to hang up all the washed clothes to get them dried. FML. I super hate it when people wake me up from my slumber. I know it's Thaipusam today so postmen don't work but I'm still very impatient with the reply from Melb U. Oh and internet has been really, really slow today.

Random:

I forgot to brush my teeth this morning HAHAHHAHA. But it's ok. People say it's actually pointless to brush it in the morning cos the important step is to brush it at night. And I did brush and flossed my teeth and rinsed my mouth last night. So it's ok.

Tag!

I was tagged by the beautiful Nee some time ago (I know it's so late I'm sorry!) so here it is! Thank you so much for tagging me! It makes me really happy.when I'm tagged cos it means someone actually remembered and thought about me when thinking of who to tag! =)

So the rules are:

1. Post a picture from your childhood (less than 13 yrs old).
2. Write about the picture.
3. Tag your friends and readers.

You know what? I saw another funny picture while searching through my childhood pictures so I'll actually post 2!

Are you ready? Lol.

I can't remember exactly how old I was in this picture but definitely less than 7 cos that's my nanny's home and I don't remember going there anymore when I started schooling. This picture brings back lots of my childhood (age 4-6) memories. I spent quite a few years with my nanny cos my parents had to work. 2 years ago, I heard from my mom that she had cancer and passed away. I'm thankful that I still remember my naughty and happy times with her and how she looked cos not many kids can actually remember things when they were so young.

Ok emo things aside lol. I was quite a poser when I was younger until I turn 9 or 10. Let me prove it to you.

Hahahahah I can't believe I used to look like that.

I believe I was around 9 or 10 in that picture. I was in Indonesia for a holiday with my family and that's a pineapple farm. I had very low self esteem back then (looking at that picture, I can totally understand why...) and I love to hide myself under big T shirts. And no, I didn't ask for that kind of haircut. My mom didn't allow me (and my siblings) to have long hair. Typical Chinese mother - hair must stay short so that it's more clean and tidy and it won't get in the way when you're studying -___- And that expression was candid, I wasn't angry or anything. Though that day was really sunny and hot so proabably that's why I looked cranky lol.

And now I tag:

Connie

Esther

Dorcas

Jane

Shin Dhee

Pynk

I hope you guys'll do the tag ♡♡♡

50 Minutes

 

Cos I like to tilt it like this.

Yay!:
Tomorrow's a public holiday and Sunday I don't need to work too.

Boo!:
Still nothing from the uni =( Again, I kept running out to check if the postman's around whenever I hear the familiar engine sound.

Random:
Whoa today I managed to shower, wash my hair and put on makeup within 50 minutes! I know most guys will say "Wtf so what I can shower, wash hair and style within 10 minutes".

Er..........

I kinda forgot what's my point now HAHHHAHAHHA. Anyway, guys stfu la what I just did was something impressive ok.

Mr Postman

I haven't been updating much ever since I finished school. How did I not know that blogging is actually my way of destressing? Recently everytime I wanted to blog, I always end up not blogging because I always think there's nothing interesting to talk about. Or I'm just too lazy to take out the pictures from my camera, edit and upload them. But who cares anyway? Me. Yes me I care and I don't have to! Starting from today, I'll blog as often as I can. If not, everyday which is quite impossible but I'll try. Even if it means there're only 10 sentences.

Yay!:

Went karaoke with Esther and Wai Tuck. Sang some really joyful (and stupid) songs like Wondergirls' Nobody (Esther planted that freakin' tune in my head already blardy hell), a Hokkien song about a million bucks and some CNY songs. Very boomz (A very versatile joke Esther discovered - google Ris Low, then search her videos in YouTube). Oh and my UDPP finally arrived after almost 2 weeks!

Boo!:

Still no news regarding my application =( Everytime I wake up I always go up to the area where letters are kept in the living room like a loser. I became extra alert and sensitive towards sounds of motorcycles aka postmen. One tiny 'vroom' and I'll either run out to check if the postmen's around, or if I'm near the door my eyes will roll immediately towards the door to check if there's any postman or a postman's dropping anything in my house.

Random:

Wk is in Berlin now and will be back on Sunday. Which means no e-date till Sunday =( My room is a huge mess now. I disallowed my mom from entering just now cos I knew she's gonna sound me so I said "No don't come in, yes I'll clean it up".

Ok that's definitely more than 10 sentences lol