The Story of my last Indon kakak

I wanted to tell the whole dramatic story of my Indon kakak but it's such a LONG LONG story so I'm actually too lazy to think and type. And besides, it involves a couple of my family's problems as well so I think I probably shouldn't get into it. But the main point is that my kakak is leaving this Tuesday. We suspect something fishy's going on cos she's been behaving really strangely these days. Well. Strange is probably not the best word to describe her. "Dangerous" could be. She was out earlier in the night, and nobody knew until my grandma was looking for her. She even had the guts to took with her our home's back doors keys which were all in a bunch. She came back after an hour or so. I thought she went shopping but I didn't see any plastic shopping bags. Maybe she went out to get a prepaid top up card (yes, she has a handphone and she thought we all don't know, for her it's supposed to be a secret) but why did she need an hour for a prepaid card? She even brought that bunch of keys into her room until my grandma noticed it wasn't there, my grandma knocked on her door and asked for it only did she took it out. WTF?? Then my youngest sister told my mom when she got back from a dinner about kakak going out. My mom went up to kakak and asked if she (kakak) did went out. Kakak said "no" and then said "only out nearby", which in other words means yes? And then kakak asked my mom in a kinda threatening tone "Who told you I went out one? Tell me la who told you!" WTF!!!!!

Seriously, I hope we're all only being too sensitive. My mom said before she'll not get any new Indon maids anymore. I didn't quite believe it but looking at how this supposingly last one here's behaving, I can see why my mom won't trust in any of them anymore.

Follow Me! ( no not the shampoo)

I took freakin' 2 hours (or maybe more dunno cos I don't look at the time every second like a loser) to 'Follow' all the blogs in my 'Read 'em' list! That's not even blogs that I stalk, sites that are on my bookmark list!

But I figured the best way to keep up without missing anything is to 'Follow'. I think it's one of the best features Blogger has to offer cos with it, I'll get to see updates everytime I log into my Blogger account - which is every freakin' hour, or sometimes half an hour wtf.

I've always had this problem where I check every single one of the people I read by clicking on their links and be disappointed when there's no update. Or, the site takes forever and ever to load just because of some shitty html or code or shitload of pictures or applications or whatnot la. It's seriously very time wasting.

So with this 'Follow' option, I'll be notified if anyone updates their blog. And the best part is I don't need to open their main blog website and wait 10 thousand years for it to load, there'll be a link to only that post so it saves more time on loading too.

While "following" these sites, I discovered a few that unlinked me. Which resulted in me removing their links as well. I'm totally all about courtesy. Poeple link me, I'll link them back. People unlink me, I'll unlink them. I'm all about giving something in return of a favour done for me and vice versa.

If I'm not following you, it's either:

1. You don't update.

2. Your (lousy tee hee) host doesn't support this feature so it's either messing my Blogger or it's not showing.

3. Your blog is set to private.

Also, if you didn't already notice, I don't have that "Follow Me" option in my sidebar. That's because I think it looks ugly and it'll kinda mess up with my layout so I don't want to put it there. To follow, you can always do it manually. I'll still be able to see and know who follows. But it's not that I have a lot of followers lah.

ONLY 2 HAHAHAHAHAA

Not that I really care anyway. Just wanna let you guys know about this 'Follow' feature cos I find it really handy.

(actually I do look at the time every second... )

Comedy Thursday

Writer's block writer's block!

Lol.

As of now, I only work on Fridays and Sundays. And if that's not lovely enough, I only have to work 5 hours each. Sounds lovely but the monthly income, no. Sufficient to support all my expenditure though but oh well, no amount is ever enough for me. I cannot keep taking new students either cos what if I need to leave for masters. Having too much time in hand, surprisingly my life is still so uninteresting. All I do each day is go online, click the refresh button (or anything that means the same thing) of my Twitter,  Blogger and Youtube page ten thousand times. So today I decided to do some spring cleaning and realize I have 10 lipsticks and 10 lipglosses. WTF DID IT MULTIPLY BY ITSELF.

Shit lah it's as though I have 10 lips wtf.

I'll probably need to dig out some old Melbourne pictures or something otherwise everyone'll go "Yer all emo stuffs so boring" wtf.

Ok a couple of Project 365 pictures that are not so boring. 

#307

 Some pig lol sleeping like a pig on my bed.

#310

When I say couple, I really mean only two hahaah.

On the day Wk left, that night a bunch of us (me, Esther, Lorraine and Jun Xue) went to Velvet Underground, Zouk for this stand up comedy thing Esther has been asking me to go since few weeks ago. It's the Comedy Thursday which basically happens on every first Thursday of every month. Google yourself for more info. Had a ball cos;

1. First time in Zouk ok walao of cos happy lah wtf and I wasn't the only jakun anyway cos it was Jun Xue's first time in Zouk too.

2. Laughed until I almost broke my jaw. Don't ask me if it's THAT funny cos like I said before I laugh at most things. Even jokes told by Esther and Jun Xue. Geddit geddit? HAHAHAHAHAHA.

3. Ate tosai + neslo panas at 2 different mamak stalls. It kinda amused me that Jun Xue's so attracted to my neslo panas cos he kept picking mine up to drink. He said he has never heard of that drink before wtf! And when I told him it's Nescafe mixed with Milo he went, " Oh Mocha la" HAHAHAHAHAHH WTF!!!

Anyone missed my vain pics?

I'll post one for you to salivate at LOL

Mmkay bye.

Oh btw, am I the only one who finds Avatar funny especially the 'ajaran sesat' and the 'bomoh' dance part?  Where they transfer life or soul or whatever it is from the human body into the avatar, like transfering a file? LOL!

I know

Is crying a failure of staying strong? If it is, I'm sorry I failed. I am known by a number of friends as a person who laughs really easily, easily ammused, easily humoured. Do you guys know I cry easily too? I see someone with no arms or legs on the street begging for money, I feel like crying. My lecturer scolds me, I get furious and I'll cry. I read or watch a sad story/movie, I cry. My parents disallow me to go out with my friends, I cry. Happened when I was younger though. My students play like crap and no matter how many fucking times I tell/yell/teach them they still either don't practice, or don't get it, or both, I'll cry. When someone close leaves, I'll cry.

I tried and tried to understand the situation. He's there. The line's expensive. Something's wrong with the internet service. Up till now, I've sent out 10 messages, and 7 from him. We're supposed to talk in msn. But the internet's not working over there.

I've waited and waited, and in the end all I get to do is sit here and feel extremely disappointed and sad. I know it's nobody's fault. I know it's not his fault that the internet's fucked up. I know it's not his fault that communicating's expensive. I know it's not his fault if he doesn't want to send me any messages just because its expensive.

So what? I'm still crying a river now.

Even though it's only 6 weeks

I know nobody likes dealing with goodbyes but I know nobody feels the same about goodbyes.

Everytime I stand in the airport facing the departure gate saying goodbye, I always have this question repeatedly banging inside my head,

" Why do I have to go through this? Why humans have to go through this? Why do certain people need to be apart? "

Over the years I've grown much stronger to all these farewells but the pain, the sadness and emptiness have never gone away from me. I know I'll get over it within days (sometimes, hours) but if I get to choose, I'd rather not go through all it at all.

Today I walked away from the airport and wished it'll be the last goodbye we'll have to say to each other. At the same time I felt so afraid of rejection, of when things don't go the way I prayed them to be. I feel it every day, every minute and every hour.

He'll be gone to Germany for only 6 weeks but when he gets back, there're only 3... possibilities. Two good, one bad.

1. I've already left, for orientation.

2. I'll be around, and will be leaving with him.

3. I'll be around, and staying back.

We've been staying so positive up till now, hoping for the best, planning for the best possibility. But I still cannot help but to be afraid of the unexpected.

Gosh I am so freakin' worried.

Ramble Ramble

I'm gonna just post up a couple of pictures from Project 365 that urm... matters haha.

 Pictures from the graduation photoshoot which I got back quite a while ago. In fact, a few months ago.

 

 My sister playing with my shades and my unwanted fake eyelashes which I've cut into half.

 

A new external hard drive! Or is it called hard disk? Nevermind. It's a Western Digital and they call it "My Passport" and it comes in a few colours. White looks damn cool so I got it. I got it cos both my internal and my external are filling up T___T

 

 Ok so this is how I actually look like without all that gunk I slap on my face sometimes.

 You know what's this? This is the BEST food in the world. GYU TAN DON.

 First few presents I received on my birthday! =) I was on Wk's bed about to sleep when I felt something's near my feet cos I accidentally kicked on it and when I got up and check I saw all these nicely laid down. =)

 

A tape rewinder! Or whatever it is called! Omg I haven't seen this thing in like... more than a decade! I remember when I was younger there's one in my old home cos my grandma used to rent those soaps and back then when cds and dvds weren't around yet, they were all in chunky tapes! And this is the thing that's used to rewind the tapes to the beginning of the series/shows!

Went to Malacca and had Durian Cendol. Nice!

 

On New Years Eve, cool people meet up at either one's house, drink champagne and chat through MSN and webcam eventhough they're only 1.5 metres away from each other.

 

On New Years Day, cool people take pictures of their own reflection on Christmas tree balls!

 

 Whoa don't I look cool wtf.

 

Finally bought a pair of new flip flops.

My previous Reef one has surprisingly served me for a good 1 year! Seriously, none of my Roxy flip flops have ever lasted that long. I mean the rubber ones. They're really lousy. I even slipped on a puddle of water and fell when I was wearing one which was quite worn out and by worn out, I don't mean it's in an uber bad condition or anything it's just that the base has gotten smoother.

And since my puppy is growing, his teeth have been constantly itchy. Any shoes/slippers left outside on the floor will get chewed. My Reef flip flops was one of the unlucky ones but surprisingly, it wasn't too damaged. I could still wear it for a while. My sister's Roxy flip flops became its toy one day and when we saw it the next day, half of one side of her flip flops were gone.

Conclusion: Reef makes good flip flops.

My Reef flip flops actually isn't too damaged anyway. It's still really safe to walk in it, I have never experienced any slippery moments even up till now. It's just that the 'thong' part and the base where the soles of my feet stands on are kinda torn (my dog's great job) and it really does look quite worn out and ridiculous. Apart from all that, it's still functioning pretty well. But I thought it's about time to get a new one already so I got the Roxy one in the picture above.

I know I just complained about Roxy flip flops but this one is not the regular rubber kind so I'm hoping it won't disappoint me. I wanted to get back something form Reef but the store I went to didn't carry any Reef stuffs anymore. Boo =( And I'm just too lazy to go elsewhere to find it cos by the time I actually find one, I am most probably broke already haha.

Ok I'm done rambling. Good night. Wk's sleeping over. He thought we're going to sleep on the same bed which is ridiculous cos it's a single bed and I'm not going to squeeze with him on one bed when there's another bed for him to sleep on. Haha. Ok ramble ramble blablabla. Bye.

Durian Cendol

Back from Malacca!

Yeah no big deal cos nobody cares anyway hahaha. I had a great, great time there. Not so much about the place nor the food though cos I've been there before. It's the amount of laughters and snappy, sarcastic moments we had. With great company comes great place.

Now, I need to freakin' wash my hair.

Signing off,
猪妹
(non halal word HAHAHHAHAHHAHA)