Mr Postman

I haven't been updating much ever since I finished school. How did I not know that blogging is actually my way of destressing? Recently everytime I wanted to blog, I always end up not blogging because I always think there's nothing interesting to talk about. Or I'm just too lazy to take out the pictures from my camera, edit and upload them. But who cares anyway? Me. Yes me I care and I don't have to! Starting from today, I'll blog as often as I can. If not, everyday which is quite impossible but I'll try. Even if it means there're only 10 sentences.

Yay!:

Went karaoke with Esther and Wai Tuck. Sang some really joyful (and stupid) songs like Wondergirls' Nobody (Esther planted that freakin' tune in my head already blardy hell), a Hokkien song about a million bucks and some CNY songs. Very boomz (A very versatile joke Esther discovered - google Ris Low, then search her videos in YouTube). Oh and my UDPP finally arrived after almost 2 weeks!

Boo!:

Still no news regarding my application =( Everytime I wake up I always go up to the area where letters are kept in the living room like a loser. I became extra alert and sensitive towards sounds of motorcycles aka postmen. One tiny 'vroom' and I'll either run out to check if the postmen's around, or if I'm near the door my eyes will roll immediately towards the door to check if there's any postman or a postman's dropping anything in my house.

Random:

Wk is in Berlin now and will be back on Sunday. Which means no e-date till Sunday =( My room is a huge mess now. I disallowed my mom from entering just now cos I knew she's gonna sound me so I said "No don't come in, yes I'll clean it up".

Ok that's definitely more than 10 sentences lol

Are you a Cheerholic?

Hello you silent readers!

Today I'm going to write a really short advertorial post. An unpaid one, that is cos I'm just a very boring blogger whom not many people read so I don't get paid to do advertorials at all. But will you guys read cos I know many people hate reading advertorial posts from their favourite bloggers, no? Well at least I do!

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Ok now to the serious part. This is NOT an advertorial anyway. It's just my way of helping a friend.

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So if you're a cheerleader, OR, if you're someone who's into cheerleading but you're somehow not in a team (yet) and you wanna get some cheerleading apparels to syok sendiri...

Ok I mean, for future use, and you'd love to know about merchandise and educate yourself with news, events, and tips on all things cheerleading in Malaysia, you ought to check this out:

CHEERHOLIC

Guys who're not into cheerleading still should check that site out cos you get to see hot chicks in tight cheerleading uniforms and shorts and when I say hot, I mean cili padi hot ok.

Show some love to my hot cheerleader kawan Cheng Choo (on the right in the pic)! =)

Even if you're REALLY not into cheerleading, you should really check that site out cos it's good to learn about something new like cheerleading rather than sitting behind the computer playing Restaurant City or checking the live News Feed or Twitter every 5 minutes, or commenting on people's status/tweets, stalking blogs etc. don't bluff lah I know you're like that yes you!

I won't talk as if I know A WHOLE DAMN LOT about cheerleading or which team Cheng Choo's cheering for (is it the Vulcanz?) cos I'm don't wanna act like a Miss Know-It-All (cos I wanna BE a Miss Know-It-All), but I do know cheerleading is not a common sport here which explains the lack of awareness among people, and I do know she and Chee Wei have been working very very hard to make it to today's reputation and have been doing the country proud. They definitely deserve all the attention they can get. So please make yourself useful and show your support! Not only to Cheerholic,  but generally to the cheerleading scene in our country.

Btw, I'm honest when I say I dislike advertorials from bloggers. No offense though but when I see the word advertorial, I most of the time won't bother reading at all. I'm not bothered to explain but I'm interested to know what you guys think. Any thoughts?

The Story of my last Indon kakak

I wanted to tell the whole dramatic story of my Indon kakak but it's such a LONG LONG story so I'm actually too lazy to think and type. And besides, it involves a couple of my family's problems as well so I think I probably shouldn't get into it. But the main point is that my kakak is leaving this Tuesday. We suspect something fishy's going on cos she's been behaving really strangely these days. Well. Strange is probably not the best word to describe her. "Dangerous" could be. She was out earlier in the night, and nobody knew until my grandma was looking for her. She even had the guts to took with her our home's back doors keys which were all in a bunch. She came back after an hour or so. I thought she went shopping but I didn't see any plastic shopping bags. Maybe she went out to get a prepaid top up card (yes, she has a handphone and she thought we all don't know, for her it's supposed to be a secret) but why did she need an hour for a prepaid card? She even brought that bunch of keys into her room until my grandma noticed it wasn't there, my grandma knocked on her door and asked for it only did she took it out. WTF?? Then my youngest sister told my mom when she got back from a dinner about kakak going out. My mom went up to kakak and asked if she (kakak) did went out. Kakak said "no" and then said "only out nearby", which in other words means yes? And then kakak asked my mom in a kinda threatening tone "Who told you I went out one? Tell me la who told you!" WTF!!!!!

Seriously, I hope we're all only being too sensitive. My mom said before she'll not get any new Indon maids anymore. I didn't quite believe it but looking at how this supposingly last one here's behaving, I can see why my mom won't trust in any of them anymore.

Follow Me! ( no not the shampoo)

I took freakin' 2 hours (or maybe more dunno cos I don't look at the time every second like a loser) to 'Follow' all the blogs in my 'Read 'em' list! That's not even blogs that I stalk, sites that are on my bookmark list!

But I figured the best way to keep up without missing anything is to 'Follow'. I think it's one of the best features Blogger has to offer cos with it, I'll get to see updates everytime I log into my Blogger account - which is every freakin' hour, or sometimes half an hour wtf.

I've always had this problem where I check every single one of the people I read by clicking on their links and be disappointed when there's no update. Or, the site takes forever and ever to load just because of some shitty html or code or shitload of pictures or applications or whatnot la. It's seriously very time wasting.

So with this 'Follow' option, I'll be notified if anyone updates their blog. And the best part is I don't need to open their main blog website and wait 10 thousand years for it to load, there'll be a link to only that post so it saves more time on loading too.

While "following" these sites, I discovered a few that unlinked me. Which resulted in me removing their links as well. I'm totally all about courtesy. Poeple link me, I'll link them back. People unlink me, I'll unlink them. I'm all about giving something in return of a favour done for me and vice versa.

If I'm not following you, it's either:

1. You don't update.

2. Your (lousy tee hee) host doesn't support this feature so it's either messing my Blogger or it's not showing.

3. Your blog is set to private.

Also, if you didn't already notice, I don't have that "Follow Me" option in my sidebar. That's because I think it looks ugly and it'll kinda mess up with my layout so I don't want to put it there. To follow, you can always do it manually. I'll still be able to see and know who follows. But it's not that I have a lot of followers lah.

ONLY 2 HAHAHAHAHAA

Not that I really care anyway. Just wanna let you guys know about this 'Follow' feature cos I find it really handy.

(actually I do look at the time every second... )

Comedy Thursday

Writer's block writer's block!

Lol.

As of now, I only work on Fridays and Sundays. And if that's not lovely enough, I only have to work 5 hours each. Sounds lovely but the monthly income, no. Sufficient to support all my expenditure though but oh well, no amount is ever enough for me. I cannot keep taking new students either cos what if I need to leave for masters. Having too much time in hand, surprisingly my life is still so uninteresting. All I do each day is go online, click the refresh button (or anything that means the same thing) of my Twitter,  Blogger and Youtube page ten thousand times. So today I decided to do some spring cleaning and realize I have 10 lipsticks and 10 lipglosses. WTF DID IT MULTIPLY BY ITSELF.

Shit lah it's as though I have 10 lips wtf.

I'll probably need to dig out some old Melbourne pictures or something otherwise everyone'll go "Yer all emo stuffs so boring" wtf.

Ok a couple of Project 365 pictures that are not so boring. 

#307

 Some pig lol sleeping like a pig on my bed.

#310

When I say couple, I really mean only two hahaah.

On the day Wk left, that night a bunch of us (me, Esther, Lorraine and Jun Xue) went to Velvet Underground, Zouk for this stand up comedy thing Esther has been asking me to go since few weeks ago. It's the Comedy Thursday which basically happens on every first Thursday of every month. Google yourself for more info. Had a ball cos;

1. First time in Zouk ok walao of cos happy lah wtf and I wasn't the only jakun anyway cos it was Jun Xue's first time in Zouk too.

2. Laughed until I almost broke my jaw. Don't ask me if it's THAT funny cos like I said before I laugh at most things. Even jokes told by Esther and Jun Xue. Geddit geddit? HAHAHAHAHAHA.

3. Ate tosai + neslo panas at 2 different mamak stalls. It kinda amused me that Jun Xue's so attracted to my neslo panas cos he kept picking mine up to drink. He said he has never heard of that drink before wtf! And when I told him it's Nescafe mixed with Milo he went, " Oh Mocha la" HAHAHAHAHAHH WTF!!!

Anyone missed my vain pics?

I'll post one for you to salivate at LOL

Mmkay bye.

Oh btw, am I the only one who finds Avatar funny especially the 'ajaran sesat' and the 'bomoh' dance part?  Where they transfer life or soul or whatever it is from the human body into the avatar, like transfering a file? LOL!

I know

Is crying a failure of staying strong? If it is, I'm sorry I failed. I am known by a number of friends as a person who laughs really easily, easily ammused, easily humoured. Do you guys know I cry easily too? I see someone with no arms or legs on the street begging for money, I feel like crying. My lecturer scolds me, I get furious and I'll cry. I read or watch a sad story/movie, I cry. My parents disallow me to go out with my friends, I cry. Happened when I was younger though. My students play like crap and no matter how many fucking times I tell/yell/teach them they still either don't practice, or don't get it, or both, I'll cry. When someone close leaves, I'll cry.

I tried and tried to understand the situation. He's there. The line's expensive. Something's wrong with the internet service. Up till now, I've sent out 10 messages, and 7 from him. We're supposed to talk in msn. But the internet's not working over there.

I've waited and waited, and in the end all I get to do is sit here and feel extremely disappointed and sad. I know it's nobody's fault. I know it's not his fault that the internet's fucked up. I know it's not his fault that communicating's expensive. I know it's not his fault if he doesn't want to send me any messages just because its expensive.

So what? I'm still crying a river now.

Even though it's only 6 weeks

I know nobody likes dealing with goodbyes but I know nobody feels the same about goodbyes.

Everytime I stand in the airport facing the departure gate saying goodbye, I always have this question repeatedly banging inside my head,

" Why do I have to go through this? Why humans have to go through this? Why do certain people need to be apart? "

Over the years I've grown much stronger to all these farewells but the pain, the sadness and emptiness have never gone away from me. I know I'll get over it within days (sometimes, hours) but if I get to choose, I'd rather not go through all it at all.

Today I walked away from the airport and wished it'll be the last goodbye we'll have to say to each other. At the same time I felt so afraid of rejection, of when things don't go the way I prayed them to be. I feel it every day, every minute and every hour.

He'll be gone to Germany for only 6 weeks but when he gets back, there're only 3... possibilities. Two good, one bad.

1. I've already left, for orientation.

2. I'll be around, and will be leaving with him.

3. I'll be around, and staying back.

We've been staying so positive up till now, hoping for the best, planning for the best possibility. But I still cannot help but to be afraid of the unexpected.

Gosh I am so freakin' worried.