Vlog "Audition & Pink Pringles"

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A Short Update

1. I didn't get anything from the Balm. My plan was to go there on Thursday but on Wednesday, I thought I wanted to just drop by MAC @ Sunway Pyramid to pick up a few stuffs since I had an hour before work starts. I ended up buying a whole crapload from MAC so... I could have bought the things I wanted from the Balm but I figured there's no point getting too many similar things. In a shorter phrase, I'm broke. Wtf. I was even late for work HAHAHA.

2. That ranty post down there, well. That guy finally replied and I'll be seeing him tomorrow. But I'm a little nervous now cos my pieces aren't really ready yet T___T

3. I'm left with about 100 pages of The Time Traveler's Wife and then I can go watch the movie! Who wants to go with me? Anyone? No one? Fine, I can go alone.

5. If I'm not updating very often, it means I'm busy preparing my audition tape. But oh who am I kidding. The last time I said this, look what's happening now! But oh please oh please, just let me focus T____T

4. Lastly, entertain yourself =)

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Cool

I was out with a group of people today and it was so freakin' awkward. They are people from one of the music centres I teach at. It was a gathering to celebrate my boss's early birthday. I usually do not join gatherings like these cos:

1. I am not close to people in music centres.
2. I don't talk much to people I'm not close with.
3. All in all, you can almost call me an anti-social freak.

And all these while I thought I have changed since my secondary school days. During that time, I have the reputation of being the 'coolest' girl. When I say 'cool', it does not mean in a hip and/or trendy way. At all.

It simply means I'm unfriendly, in a nicer and more polite term of course. When new people talk to me, they would simply use the word 'cool' to describe me or regard me as 'cool'.

And I thought I have changed and became more 'warm'.

I was wrong.

Until today, people still use the word 'cool' to describe me.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not getting angry here. Honestly, this situation amuse me. I know 'cool' only mean 'unfriendly' but somehow, I find it cool to be called 'cool', you know what I mean? HAHAHAHAHA. Syok sendiri.

Anyway, yeah I guess after all these years, I haven't changed a single bit. I am 'cool' towards people I don't know or people I am not close with. I open up only to people I know AND am close with. There's a difference between people I know, and people I know AND am close with ok?

Ask all my close friends, I don't think they'll ever use the word 'cool' to describe me. They would most likely say I'm vain, lame, random, crazy etc etc but not cool.

But yeah. I guess being 'cool' is my... signature? Wtf.

It's not done on purpose anyway.

Peacock Inspired

I posted "I'm a peacock!" to my Twitter and I had 3 people telling me "wtf" hahahah. Yeah 3's not a lot that's because I don't follow many people, I only follow people I know. Which also means I don't know many people hahah.

Anyway, I did this peacock-inspired look for a little online contest. Well, technically it's not my original idea, more like a recreation. It's supposed to be a Halloween makeup look contest. I know, we don't celebrate Halloween here and even if we do, it's over. So I was only doing this for fun and since I was already having fun, I thought I might as well join the contest.

Since I don't want to spam this blog with so many (scary? haha) vain pictures of myself, I'm only posting one. The rest will be in my vanity blog.

Finally my Ardelle lashes came out to play. FYI, I hate wearing false eyelashes. Which was why I didn't even bother sticking it onto my lashline hahaha! It still has that tackiness without the glue so I simply stuck it onto my lashline and quickly took pictures.

Ok gtg.

Random Stuffs

Omg the itch to buy things is freakin' me out. Every second I think of what I want to buy and it's only the 2nd day of November! Seriously, can die man. Wk's right, when we live together, I should hand him ALL my money and he shall be the one to control the flow.

I seriously need a new night time moisturizer cos my BodyShop Time Release Capsule's finishing. It's a 28 days treatment thingie and I'm left with my last 4 capsules already. And another foundation cos I just realized that the current one I'm using, which is new anyway, is too light for my skin tone. It makes me look stark white not only in pictures, even my mom said so! Ugh the horror. Not gonna throw it away anyway, it's still money spent! I'll probably get a darker shade and mix them.

Ok since Wk's not going to sleep tonight cos he's rushing for his submission, I'll stay up with him by practising =) We have our videos and skype on. It's as though we're right next to each other, working really hard =)

Oooh I just found out The Time Traveler's Wife the movie's out already! Gosh I'm still left with 200++ pages. Gotta speed up.

Ok time to go. Have a great week everyone.

the Balm

Omg the Balm is finally here in Malaysia! I first saw people using it in Youtube a long time ago but it didn't interest me as much as when I saw it in Melbourne at Kit. It was ridiculously overpriced there so I didn't buy anything. Actually, almost ALL cosmetics in Australia are more expensive than what they really cost - whether in the US or in Malaysia. Which explains why, I only bought stuffs that I cannot find in Malaysia. MAC, Benefit, Shiseido, Maybeline, Revlon - just name anything that Malaysia has - it's all so much more expensive in Australia. What a bummer =( That doesn't mean stuffs that are not available in Malaysia, are cheap either. They are STILL a lot more expensive cos I compared to the prices in the US. Australia, bloody moneysucking country. And oh god I cannot imagine how I am going to shop for my makeup stuffs if I'm going there next year T____T

So anyway, the Balm!!! If it wasn't for the Nuffnang banner I have in my blog, I wouldn't even know it's already here in Malaysia! Starting from today! They're having some roadshow at MidValley and I can't wait to drop by and check out their stuffs, now that it's more affordable! Click here if anyone is interested.

Ok, I'm not saying the stuffs are exactly cheap, they ARE considered expensive but to compare with the price in Melbourne, this is definitely wayyy cheaper.

I just got my cheque today yayy! So I'll have to wait till (earliest :D) Wednesday before the money is transfered then I can drive up to MidValley and check out their stuffs and MAYBE (aka most probably hahaha) pick up some stuffs!

A few goodies that I MIGHT get:

Shady Lady - I don't think I need to explain on this. I have always been crazy over eyeshadows palettes. You know, it's selling at AUD 84.95 (around RM265) in Australia but it's only RM 120 here. Stupid right?


time Balm Concealer - This is is something that sounds interesting. I might buy this just because it claims that it combats wrinkles while it conceals, I might not buy this just because I still have a lot more of my concealer. Will decide after testing it.

Lip Plumper Trio - Just because I don't have that many lip glosses (yet HAHA) and this looks like a pretty good deal. But I have a feeling Malaysia might not have this... we'll see.

Bahama Mama - Cos I need a proper contouring powder, I cannot cannot CANNOT keep using my eyeshadows anymore! And besides, this stuff can also be used as a bronzer. 2 in 1 price! Oh, this is AUD 32.95 (RM 103) but it's only (I'm guessing) RM60 here.

I am quite tempted to get their blushers only because the packaging's too hard to resist but meh. They only have like 3 colours to choose from and I already have pretty good blushers similar to those colours so... I'll just skip that.

So instead of their blushers which don't look that interesting, I'm interested in this!


Stainiac - Another 2 in 1 price product, a cheek and lip stain! Although I doubt its lasting power... I shall try it out regardless!

Check the website out! I personally think it's really cute. The packaging at some point does resemble Benefit's products. It doesn't really bother me though cos I'm a sucker for packaging sometimes, I'd go with anything adorable. And besides, Benefit is so expensive. This one is not really cheap but at least, to compare with Benefit it's more affordable.

My Wish

I'm in a lovey dovey mood now so if you can't stand stuffs like that, don't bother reading.

I was reading The Time Traveler's Wife and came upon this page which talks about how much Clare wants to chop her hair off but can't because Henry loves it and then she says she will miss it but it's just so much effort. It felt so familiar reading all that because, for the longest time I have always wanted to cut my hair short (when my hair was super duper long) and when I say short, I mean super short. Has anyone ever noticed how long my hair used to be?


Crap would you look at that? It reached my hips. My freakin' hips.

And honestly, I do miss it T_T

Not that my hair's super short now. It's heavily layered and the length still remained about the same but it doesn't look as long as it was, like in that picture anymore just because it's much thinner now. The reason I kept the length is because, like Clare, I know I will definitely miss it and also, Wk loves my long hair (he tells me that, I didn't assume this myself ok) and I know he'll definitely be upset if I cut it short.

Anyway, I must say, having it layered has been the best thing I could do for my hair cos all my split ends are now gone, it's more manageable, it doesn't tangle as much, it's easier to comb and the best part is I still get to keep the length eventhough it might not look as long as before :)

Ok I know, that's like totally random. I just thought I would share that small part of that novel here cos I can relate to it so much. That book has been ok. I won't say it's as interesting as Life of Pi but I do enjoy reading it. It's so freakin' thick lah 500 pages wtf. Probably need another month or two to finish it cos I only do about 8-10 pages a day.

Ok that aside, I have been missing Wk so damn freakin' much these few days. We skype/msn /webcam almost every single day. We sometimes wake each other up. And the best part is, we motivate each other to do what we're supposed to do - I'm supposed to practice, he's supposed to work on his design. And I must say, having him around is sooooo much better cos otherwise, I won't even bother to take my violin out!

Everytime I look at him in my laptop's screen, I think of the day we're going to live together, in OUR apartment, OUR room, OUR kitchen, OUR bed, OUR computer (haha next time about this), OUR place. And it just motivates me to want to work hard and just get freakin' get accepted by the university.

The next time I go to Melbourne, I'm expecting to say... "OUR" apartment instead of "HIS" apartment, or "HIS" bed. The next time I we wish each other "good morning nigga" (inside joke), I want to be able to laugh right in front of him and not just typing "ha ha ha" and punch 'Enter' on the keyboard. And the next time I expect all these, is next year.

The more I think about all these, the more I want to practice, and the more I think about all these, the more I'm afraid of rejection. It's stressing me out seriously.

This is not just a diploma or a degree. It's a master studies. It's not something you can apply by sending in a bunch of papers and forms and whatnot. I sometimes wonder if I'm actually fit, or good enough to apply. A lot of people tell me I can do it and I can get in and all that. I know everyone's being nice but whether they really think I am good enough, I don't know. What I know is I want to just do my best, and apply and hope for the best.

But I constantly think about a lot of 'what if's. What if I get rejected?

I cannot take rejection. At all. Not at this stage now. He has given up the contract and hasn't even found a new accomodation, all because he's expecting me. How can I even deal with a rejection when I'm thrown with all these expectations?

Another reason to not being able to handle rejection is that I seriously cannot stand this LDR any longer anymore.

I just want to stay beside him and have someone to touch my hair. I just want to stay beside him and have someone to keep me warm. I just want to stay beside him and have someone to tell me how much he loves me everyday, right to my face and not through the computer or phones. I'm just someone who's like many others out there, who needs her dose of affection everyday. I hope it's not too much to ask for.